The soccer boy❤️⚽️

but i love you..

(don't play song yet)

I walked into the doorway, greeted by everyone.

Amanda: so what exactly did you have to do?

Riley: oh..I uh my dad, asked me to come with him and meet some people, and then sent me to do this huge grocery shopping thing and send it downstairs for the remainder of the games.

They all nodded and Mattia stood there, smiling. He zoomed over to me, picking me up and smiling.

Mattia: I missed you (🥺)

I smiled and took in the hug that I so desperately needed. At the same time, I also felt so guilty because I just killed his offspring. I smiled slightly and nodded.

Riley: I missed you too.

The next few days went by normally...for them. I felt this unsettling feeling in my stomach, where my baby should be. I would rub my stomach, zoning out, then realizing there's nothing there anymore and I'd just cry. Though, it's what was best. For both me and the baby. That baby deserves the world, I couldn't have ever given it the life they deserved.

Today was the day, the last day. We went home today. We all got on the bus, and I was tired. We won the championships, in case you were wondering. Everyone was so hyped, happy, cheery. So was I, but it was hard. It didn't even matter to me anymore. First 4 hours I just slept, and slept and slept. Hoping I'd actually end up sleeping the guilt off. I was wrong, and failed. We were now an hour away from NJ and I was on my phone.

Mattia: bebeee gimme attention.

He laid down on my stomach and snuggled up to me. My heart🥺 I started playing with his hair and massaging his scalp a bit, until we actually made it. Me, Kairi, and Mattia all went to my house because he didn't wanna go home yet. Once we walked in, Maiya smiled and hugged me tight. I picked her up, hugging her.

Riley: god I missed you so much!

Maiya: it's been kinda boring without you.

I laughed and she went to go say hi to Kairi.

Mattia: I'll take your bags upstairs, you say hi to everyone.

I smiled and nodded, kissing him softly. He went upstairs and said hello to my mom, hugging her tight. Sure, fast food and restaurants were good, but nothing beats home cooked meals.
PLAY SONG NOW!

I went upstairs to my room and saw Mattia, standing there, with a paper in his hand and in the other...my pills. I felt my stomach turn and my face go pale. He looked up at me, tears slightly forming in his eyes.

Mattia: w-what's this?

I felt a tear stream down my face. I closed the door behind me, walking forward.

Riley: where did you get th-

Mattia: I was going to help you unpack and I saw this at the bottom and.....

I could actually puke right now.

Mattia: what is this?

He said holding out the paper. Looking at the pills.

Mattia: these aren't your painkillers prescription.....WHY DOES IT SAY ABORTION?!?

I stayed silent. Hardly able to talk.

Mattia: did you..did you cheat on me?

Riley: what? No! I could never!!

I said walked towards him, he stepped back.

Mattia: so then..then it's mine?

He said on the verge of tears.

Riley: ........was...yours...