Can the broken be fixed?
Can a loner get life lasting friends?
Maybe, but Kelly does not think so..
Kelly Kent.
She thinks that she is destined to be a loner all her life.
Well why won't she think so, because if you look into her life, let alon...
"Lonely, I'm mister lonely. I have nobody, for my own." _______________________________________
I wake up the next morning and try to do the world's hardest possible thing; not going back to sleep again! And that is extremely hard when you're dreading the day even before it has started.
I push myself to the bathroom and the thoughts of the life that I had left behind start to flood through me while I'm brushing my teeth.
How I would sit at the back of the class. How nobody stole a second glance at me let alone initiate a conversation. And to make matters worse than they already were, my old school had to create a rule that said the students were strictly supposed to sit in the class and eat instead of going to the cafeteria. Which was way worse in my case because it felt like I was sitting inside a goddamn zoo! It was so frustrating that most of the times I felt like I wanted to bang my head on the wall! During lectures at least the students were quiet (most of them) but during lunch, they were like zombies who were trying to eat whatever they can from wherever they can.
I guess it helped being a loner in that school because, 1. People do not ask for your food. 2. They let you do your work. 3. You don't have to get engaged in a meaningless conversation. 4. THEY DON'T ASK FOR YOUR BLOODY FOOD!!!
And I don't think we need a 5th reason anymore after the 4th one now, do we?
It's not like I never made a friend, I had one back in 5th grade but then she started avoiding me after 2 months of friendship. And then I had this other 2 month lasting friendship in 7th grade. And then I had also had a few other friendships that too ended within the span of 2 months.
And after that I realized that I was only good for people until they found someone better than me which didn't take them longer than 2 months as per my records.
And that's when I firmly believed that friendships weren't meant for me and that I was destined to be a loner. Hence, I never tried making any friends ever again.
And I am going to stand by it in the new school too because when the friendships and a few other shite ended, it broke me up into pieces while the they were acting as if absolutely nothing happened. That's when I knew that I get attached really fast and it breaks me when the other person does not reciprocate.
So I am going to steer clear of people here as to not make any friends, get attached, and then heartbroken.
By the time I came out of my thoughts before the worst ones started, I realized that I was very creepily staring at my reflection in the mirror. And also that the clock is ticking and if I don't hurry up, I'm gonna be late for my first day and that'll probably attract unnecessary attention which I do not want because I was already joining the school 2 weeks after the opening day for well reasons and that was gonna attract more attention than needed anyway.
I freshen up into...
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I make a quick coffee, grab my bag and exit my apartment.
I planned that I would take taxi as my regular transportation until I buy a car but since I'm up early today so I decide to walk to school. I am in a need for fresh air either way so it's a win-win. Plus I do not even have the extra money to pay for the taxi ride so I guess I'll have to walk until I get a job and my first paycheck.
I put on my headphones and follow my mantra that is, MUSIC -ON, LIFE -OFF Helps me escape the world a little.
I walk and walk and walk and then come to a halt as I realize that I've reached my destination.
I am now standing in front of the ginormous school campus...
