Can the broken be fixed?
Can a loner get life lasting friends?
Maybe, but Kelly does not think so..
Kelly Kent.
She thinks that she is destined to be a loner all her life.
Well why won't she think so, because if you look into her life, let alon...
"Pain, but I won't let it turn to hate, No, I won't let it change me."
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It's been almost a week since Matt helped me with the period situation.
I haven't talked properly to him or any of my friends for that matter because I am so nervous and tensed for the upcoming exams.
Usually I'm never this freaked out for exams because I would always be ready for them in advanced. But after coming here, I made friends which caused me into being a part of a lot of hangouts, movies and sleepovers.
Earlier, I was just by myself so even if I went to some place, it'd hardly take more than an hour for me, 2 hours at most. But now the time flies when I'm with the girls and the boys.
I absolutely do not regret befriending these people coz now my life has become way more fun than it was before. But I have been spending less time with them the past few days because I had a lot of syllabus to cover and very less time.
My exams started next week and I was an absolute nerve wreck.
I put on,
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And get ready for school.
I have been walking to school instead of taking lifts from GG so I can be there an hour and a half before school started so I could peacefully sit in the library and get studies done. Most of my lunches were also spent in the library and I would study during detention too, barely conversing with Matt. Then I would go to work and then take a small power nap upon reaching home. Then I would be up again studying late in the night and then repeat.
The teachers set us free in most classes because the syllabus teaching from their side is over and now all we have to do is self studying. So I leave the classes and sit in the library almost all day long rarely going to the cafeteria to grab lunch.
I enter the school and head straight to the library.
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Half the day is over and it's now lunch but I decided to skip it coz I still had a lot left to study.
"Where on earth have you been all these days, precious?" I look up from my textbook to see Matt and Jay taking a seat opposite me
"You guys see me everyday." I state
"We barely see you these days and we've hardly talked." Matt says, annoyance clear in his voice
"You've been blocking us out, squirt." Jay says, calmly
"Well I'm sorry but I want to maintain my good grades. And it's not like I'll never talk to you all ever again. We're gonna be back to normal after the exams end." I tell them
"It's not about you talking to us or not because I understand that part but what we meant was, you're pressurizing yourself way too much. You need to relax, precious." Matt says, gently
"What makes you say, I'm under pressure?" I counter
"Do you really want us to answer that question, squirt?" Jay says
No, I don't coz I know they're right. So I just keep shut and stare at the words in my book.
"You've been skipping lunch for God's sake!" Matt exclaims, frustrated
"And why does that make you so annoyed?" I snap
"Squirt, the stress is not good for you." Jay says
"Well you better not talk about stress to me. In fact you should be stressed right now too because if you do not score good in these exams, my dad and Uncle Sam would be really mad at you." I tell him
"Well I'm doing whatever I can. And what I don't understand is why are you so worried about me? And why do you need to study so much, you're gonna ace the exams anyway, nerd?" Jay says, bitterness dripping from him words
It hurt. To hear those words coming out of his mouth hurt.
"I'm studying because of I don't then I'll get low grades which would make dad and Sam think that you're a bad influence to me since the news of me being in that fight with Jack has reached them and I don't want them to think that you're a bad company to me because you're not. You know I love you." I tell him, and by judging Matt's expression, I'm sure he can see the hurt in my eyes but Jay is oblivious
"Oh so now you're gonna put all of this on me? You're studying because you're a nerd and because you want to show off your grades to both of our parents and make me look like the bad guy in front of them." Jay yells
"I never want to make you look like the bad guy. Why would I?" I ask
"Because you're jealous." he states
"Jealous, of you? Why would you think that?" I ask, crossing my arms over my chest
"Because I have friends, I always had and you didn't. All you had was our parents and you made sure they think you were the perfect daughter but I was a bad company coz I was busy having fun with my friends. You were jealous because you never had friends but I always did." he yells
I'm too hurt and shocked to speak. Matt looks taken aback by this too. Why wouldn't he? He's always seen us so loving and caring towards each other that this was bound to shock him. I myself was shocked at this side of Jay because all the other times he was a very loving cousin. He was like my own brother.
"I don't feel the need to justify myself." I mutter and wrap up my stuff and leave
I decided to skip the rest of the day and detention. I don't care if I get into trouble for it but right now, I can't stay in school.
I walk home and lock myself in my apartment.
As soon as I close my apartment door, the tears start falling freely down my cheeks.
I sit down with my back supported by the door and hug my legs to my chest and let the tears fall.
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Why would Jayden say such harsh words to Kelly?
Did he really think Kelly was that selfish or was he stressed about something else?
