Young Adult

Chapter fifty - Letting me in

I instinctively hugged Ezra as he began to cry, I waited him to say anything before replying.

"Can we go upstairs?" He finally spoke after a couple minutes, I nodded as I had already finished bandaging his hands. We lay down in bed, me looking at Ezra and him down looking at the mattress.

"It's been almost fourteen years." He softly spoke, "it's been almost fourteen years since she threw that apartment key at me and yelled at me to get out of her house, I thought that we might meet again one day and she would look down at me again, I thought that I'd be fine if that happened because I am in the top 1% now, I'm untouchable to her dismay ... but she cried when she saw me, her eyes looked sad." He muttered as he began to silently cry again.

I pushed my body closer to him so that I wrapping my arms around his torso, Ezra began to stroke my hair. "Did it hurt? Waiting for me? You looked uncomfortable asleep outside of the door." He softly asked me, I shook my head.

"No, it was nothing compared to your pain." I mumbled, "stupid." He smiled down at me.

"Do you want to see her again?" I asked him, Ezra paused for a long time before responding to me, "you worked with her for a week, what's she like?" He asked.

"A normal teacher I guess." I replied, "a teacher huh, I guess that she was a good mom when I was a child, maybe she misses those times." He spoke, "do you miss that time? Having a mother figure." Ezra shook his head, "not if that time time doesn't include you."

I looked up at him "what if it did though, I mean now." He looked away from my gaze "I don't want to talk about it right now, it's only been less than a day since I saw her. I don't know what to think." I nodded holding him tighter in my arms.

Ezra hadn't spoke much all weekend, he just lay down in a feral position in bed most of the time. He came down once to help me make some fish for dinner and conversed like everything was fine but then went back up to bed.

Monday had rolled around and I was wondering if he was going to go to work today, I was up and ready by half seven, "are you going to work today?" I nudged his arm gently to see if he would get up. Ezra nodded and went into the shower.

"Will you stop staring at me I'm fine." He urged as we were driving to work, "I know, but I'm just making sure, are you sure you can work today." Ezra sighed "I guess I should stop bothering you when you're sick, now I know how you feel when I worry about you." I smirked, atleast he was fine enough to make jokes.

"Addison there's someone who wants to talk to you on line one." Sydney, Ezra's receptionist told me as I walked over to my desk, I watched Ezra walked into his office and settle down before picking up.

"Hello?" I responded, "Addison it's me Ms Walker from school." My body froze over when she spoke, "I'm sorry for calling you, your office number was the only one I could find out." She sighed, I could tell that she sounded as worn out as Ezra was.

"You can tell Ezra that I spoke to you, but do you think we could meet soon? I don't want anything from you or Ezra I just need to talk." I thought for a while before responding.

If she wanted to speak to Ezra I would have flat out refused because that's not my call to make, but she wanted to talk to me instead. Actually I've been curious for ages now, who was the woman that could throw my husband out of her own house.

"I have a break in three hours, is it fine if we meet near my office?" Ms Walters accepted my offer and we arranged a place to meet.

Soon enough in three, painstaking long hours I finally walked over to the the cafe, ms Walters was already sat down waiting for me. I took a deep breath in to regain my composure before walking over to sit opposite here.

"Addison." She exclaimed as I sat down, she put back on a saddened look as she saw my cold exterior. "You probably want to curse me out for what I did to Ezra, and I don't blame you. All I want to know is if he's happy?" She pleaded, cracking my facade slightly.

"Did you know that Ezra is a ceo of a large company? He's made hundreds of millions from years with no breaks, pushing himself to the limits. Why has he endured this? Because of you, because he thought one day if he ever met you again you might abandon him again for not being good enough, he has worried everyday that he's not good enough to be loved or liked. And you ask if he's happy." I regurgitated any words trapped in my head that I didn't even though were there.

Ms Walters hung her head down in shame,
"I can't say anything that can make it up to you, I just want to know if in between his trauma if he's happy." I scoffed slightly at her brazenness.

"I have hated you for him for a long time now, Ezra will never be able to bring himself to hate you so I have carried his ugly emotions. But I want him to meet you again, he had pushed his unresolved trauma onto me for a while now. I don't mind because I love him, but he should meet you one more time to resolve it before he can move on with his life."

I never really thought about it until now I guess, but Ezra is also stuck in the past, using money and success to hide the little boy trapped in his mother's shadow.

I walked off as I handed her Ezra's business card before I could cry in front of her, I didn't need her to see that she had gotten inside my head. I began to pick up my pace to a run to go barge into Ezra's office.

"Addy!" He softly exclaimed as he saw me cry, "I'm sorry." I began to wail as Ezra walked over to comfort me. "What happened?" He asked.

"I met your mom, I wanted to say no for you, but I just wanted to know why she left you. I'm sorry for crying, I know I'm in the wrong and you can hate me all you want for going to see her without your consent." He sighed and held my hand to hug me on his couch.

"Silly, how could I hate you. I hate myself when you say that as it makes me think that I've done something where you would think that I hate you." He uttered, I caressed his cheek with my hand trying to smile through the tears.

"I love you."