Young Adult

Chapter fifty four - Nineteen or twenty five?

"Happy birthday!" Ezra woke me up on the Thursday by whispering those words in my ear, it was my second least favourite way to be waking up today - the first still puking up in the toilet.

"Do you not feel sick today?" He asked as I stretched over to face him, I shook my head. "I'll make you some breakfast then." He shot you and ran downstairs.

Twenty five now? It's been almost seven months since I lost my memories, I remember coming back home from the hospital that day and wondering if I would still be here at thirty trying to be someone I'm not.

Atleast I don't have to pretend to be the person Ezra loves now, because he loves this side of me aswell.

But I always feel jealous of myself whenever I think about Ezra, it's like I share his love with a dead person he secretly wishes will come back to life.

"Here, I made you some rice porridge since I didn't know if you could keep anything else down." I kissed him on the cheek as he handed me the tray. "Thank you,not only for this but for not turning me away after the car crash." I muttered.

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion "why the sudden monologue? It makes me think that you'll leave me." I rolled my eyes at him, "you're the one that told me to move on if you ever die last week."

His face turned red and he averted my eye contact, "I was just telling you to be happy." I ruffled up his slightly curly hair, "and you are my source of happiness." He pecked my lips before spoon feeding me the rest of the porridge.

"I only have a couple meetings today so I should be able to finish work early today, Lyn and Kelton don't have any ongoing projects right now so we'll all come over early. I asked your parents and brother to come over, but there's a lot of storms in London right now so all flights are grounded, is that okay?" He asked me.

I nodded, to be honest I wouldn't mind if only us two, Ezra's all the close family I need. He kissed my forehead before leaving for the day.

Mrs Jackson helped me set up a quaint party, Ezra texted me that a couple business partners were coming over after hearing that it was my birthday. I didn't mind having a bigger party so I let Kelton bring his friends over that were pleading to come over, so as six rolled around there were around forty to fifty people in my house.

I sighed, Ezra has been dragged away all night by shareholders, I've greeted a couple but I got pretty bored after a while so I slipped away.

I spotted Lyn sitting quietly by herself and quickly grabbed her arm to lead her into one of the downstairs bathrooms.

"Why are we in here Addy?" She asked, "I wasn't going to talk to anyone about this, but Ezra's mom came over a couple days ago and she asked me if I was pregnant. I just said that it was food poisoning as it probably is, right?"

Lyn didn't really know how to respond, "do you want it to be?" She questioned, I ran my hand through my hair, "no, yes? I don't know, I didn't think much of it until I needed to go to the supermarket to get some hors d'oeuvres and I just decided to buy a pregnancy test as one girl at my school did that in the toilets once at it seemed cool. I decided not to do it until I saw Ezra talking to one of his stockholders talking about their new kid and he seemed really excited, I had never seen him before like that."

Lyn shook me to stop me from rambling, "Addison! A baby isn't something you should decide on a whim, did Ezra say he'll wait three years until you're more mentally mature." I nodded, "I'm mentally nineteen, people have kids younger than me and do fine, besides even if I'm not completely ready, what if I am pregnant? What would I do."

Lyn sat down on the tiled floor and motioned me to do the same, "so would you keep it? What if you regret having a child after it's already born, I mean if you were pregnant right now it would only be a lump of cells that aren't human." I shook my head, "no I don't want to abort it if I was pregnant, Ezra would never forgive me."

Lyn grabbed my shoulders to stare at me in the eyes, "Addison it's your body, Ezra has no say in what you do or do not do with it. He's always wanted kids but he needs you, you can do whatever you want." I smiled at her and nodded.

"So are you going to do the test?" She motioned over time the pregnancy test sitting on the toilet lid. "What if I can't do it? What if it's negative? What if it's positive." Lyn smiled at me, "no matter the result you'll still be Addison, a baby or no baby won't change who you are. But isn't it better to find out now? You have more time to decide what to do, and even though I don't like kids I'll try my best to be there for you." She held my hands to comfort me.

"Okay I'll do it!" I exclaimed, "do you want me to wait outside? Or what?" I shrugged, "I'm kind of panicking a lot right now, just hide behind the shower curtain." Lyn turned around as I peed.

"So are you pregnant?" She rushes over as soon as I was done taking the test, "I think it takes a couple minutes to know." My voice wobbled as I responded.

After a minute of anticipation there was a loud scream from the living room.