Young Adult

Chapter fifty six - When life is unplanned

Those words echoed through my head, I sat there in shock and it seemed like Ezra was in the same state.

"You're five weeks pregnant, you might have experienced mood swings, morning sickness, body aches and nausea. If you want to book an OBGYN appointment you can do so at reception, but since there's nothing wrong with your ankle from my assessment, you are cleared to go home." The doctor added.

We didn't say anything to each other as the doctor left, nor did we say anything as we left the hospital. I began to grow worried as we were driving home.

He wanted a child so why is he so quiet now? Has he changed his mind? Should I not be happy right now? Maybe I heard the doctor wrong and I'm actually in a dream? But if I am in a dream, where is Anna Wintour?

The car pulled up to the driveway and we began to walk inside, my knees were weak from worrying. I shut the front door behind me and as soon as I turned down Ezra hugged me tightly.

"Thank you Addison." I burst into tears at those words, he broke away from me to wipe my tears. "Why are you crying?" He asked, "you weren't saying anything at the hospital or on the way back, I thought that you had changed your mind."

He smiled at me and hugged me again, "I'm sorry, I don't like expressing private emotions in public, I've grown used to people watching my every move and using it against me." He sighed whilst stroking the back of my head.

"Let's go to sleep now, you've had a hard day" He carried me bridal style upstairs.

"I can't believe I'm going to be a father!" He exclaimed, still hugging me laying down.

My serotonin began to wear off now as I heard those words again, wait how could this happen? I thought that we were going to wait three more years? Am I ready to be a mom?

Five weeks ago ... that was after I had finished working for Olivia, that weekend where Ezra ...

I pushed away from his arms "Ezra did you plan this?" I asked in a monotone voice, he smiled at me whilst tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear. "You can get mad at me as much as you want now forever and I'll take it all because this is the happiest moment of my life," he paused before whispering in my ear, "for the record, five weeks ago when we ran out of condoms it was you that said it should be fine because you were on the last day of your period."

I shot back in embarrassment remembering my words, "fine, so this wasn't planned, are you really that happy though? I mean it's just a bunch of cells right now." Ezra nodded profusely, "to you it might be, but I've always wanted something that I would have to take care of. When I was growing up I'd always say to myself that I could raise a child better than my parents, that I would give them the childhood I didn't have. When you lost your memories you seemed more mature than you did before, you didn't need my care anymore. But I've realised that the care you need now is in love, to have a baby with you is just to have another piece of you to love."

I wrapped my arms around his waist to thank him for his sweet words, "do you think you're ready for a child though? Are you not scared of making just one mistake and forever traumatising them?" My voice cracked as I spoke.

He nodded, "of course I'm scared, but if I'm having this child with you I've never been more sure of anything else in my life before." There was a pause before Ezra spoke again, "did something like that happen to you? Did your childhood traumatise you? I didn't grow up with money so you know more around our child's future upbringing that I will."

I shook my head, "not to me but to lily, I could deal with the kidnappings, the snarky trust fund kids and much more because I had a family and money, but lily had to deal with everything without those two things, she had no one but me to care for her. Our parents were always a bit scared of her and she was heavily bullied by girls that saw her as a side of me but with no money, Yale was always my dream besides graphic design but I was considering of giving it up for her." I trailed off at the end before Ezra hugged me tighter.

"It must have been hard to basically be a mom to someone else whose only a year younger than you, I get why you're scared now but you're not in this alone this time. I'm here and we're raising this child together." He spoke in a soft tone before touching my stomach.

"Do you want a boy or a girl?" He asked me, "hmm, if you asked me this question six years ago I would've said a son to give you an heir, but now I just want a healthy child. What do you want?" I asked.

"I don't mind the child, I just want a baby that looks like you." I giggled, "will you love out child unless it looks like me?" Ezra shook his head, "I'll love them regardless, but I think that it's better for them to look like you." I huffed.

"Mr Reed, I don't want to admit this but your looks are quite above average, I think this child will be fine if they look more like you or me." Ezra smirked, "I'd rather they look like you though." He spoke before we both fell asleep.