Broken To Become Stronger

Chapter 12~• Beyond the uncertainties

                Chapter 12

~• Beyond The Uncertainties

And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out. And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent.

[65:2-3]

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"After exams means it's just a month away."her voice carried several emotions.

" I told him that we are planing to move into the city after your exams are over and it will take at least a week so the wedding date should be fixed in the next week or after that."
Sadness registered on her face,she turned away her face from Him but he could still see her chin quivering.

"What is the problem,Yasmeen? you need to tell me". He asked as gently as possible.

" I don't know myself ".She was sitting in the same position and her voice was thick.

"Take your time,habibty and remember one thing whatever decision you make I am always there for you to support".He stepped down from the chair and walked around the desk towards the door. He was turning the handle of the door when he heard her saying aloud," I am scared".

She looked at him with tears brewing in her eyes. He closed the door and silently sat right next to her.

'What are you scared of"?There was so much compassion in his voice.

"I am scared of marriage and the life after that". She couldn't tell this to her mother,for she was not keeping well from the past few months,her sister in law was never an option so she only had her brother to whom she could pour her heart out and he always listened her.

" Is that it"? A faint smile flickered across his face. Getting a little closer to her,he took her hand in his and said,"You're panicked because you're about to make a commitment for the rest of your life you're staring that notion right in the eye. Don't worry it's completely normal to feel like that.It happens with most of the to-be weds. Stay relax and don't think much about it.Fahil is a very good guy. He is the kind of guy who puts Deen first in whatever he does and trust me Yasmeen the one who fears Allah in every aspect of his life can never wrong anybody. He will take care of your rights because he fulfills the rights of his Creator".looking at her who was still sitting silently with out giving any response,he thought there was more talking to do.

"You know,good women are for good men and good men are for good women. HE will bless you with the best,In sha Allah".

" That's not the case always".

"And why would you say like that".
" You are so good but..." She gauged the impact of her words by watching his expressions.

"We can only judge her by what is manifested but Allah knows the hidden and may be her hidden side is full of khayr which we may realise later. Plus dealing with her has always brought me closer to Allah.When I am with her I am actually more closer with Allah.She is a test for me and as long as I am doing good in it, it's all worth it." He swallowed and spoke , but his voice was shattered.

The next day the boy's family arrived in the evening,sitting in her room with the books open she tried to focus on her studies.But her mind wasn't concentrating on them at all. With an irritated sigh she closed the book and settled herself for the night only to find that, in her dreams, too,she was thinking about her future.

She had slept a little that night as a result she felt restless and uneasy. However she managed to get ready for the school. She still wasn't aware of what decision was made yesterday. Last night she remembered someone opening the door of her room,she was awake but she didn't stop whoever it was,and the person returned taking the impression that she was asleep. Lying on her bed she closed her eyes tightly until she heard the closing of the door.