"I love to taste you, but I hate kissing you" Chris admitted, his words cut me deeper than one thousand knives. He refuses to love me, but loves to touch me.
"Truth or dare Chris?" I ask in between sloppy kisses, loving the way that his hands roamed...
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It has been a month since the incident, and exactly a month since I've been staying with my brother. Chris and I have contact, but not much. Considering I'm pregnant, I've been allowing him to come to appointments, but we have been staying separately.
I have tried getting over what he did, but I couldn't, instead I've come to terms with it. Chris and I's relationship was sex based, and there's no saying he wouldn't do that with someone else while I was unable to do so.
He's staying at the house, and I'm here, occasionally going over to catch up and get some things, I think distance is the best for us. He apologizes every time I go over, and he repeatedly lets me know that he isn't with anyone else and he won't be, however I'm not so sure.
"How are you feeling momma?" Georgia asks me, while bringing over the tea kettle.
"Me? You're the one who's ready to burst at any second!" I laugh, referring to both of us with very pregnant bellies.
"Oh yeah he better get out of here soon, mommy is gonna flip out" she rubs her belly and uses a baby voice.
"Understandable, it's only 6 months and I'm ready for it to be over" I groan, the pain of the last month has been unbearable.
"Soon, Soon for the both of us!" She laughs and then prays to the sky.
"Are you doing anything today?" She asks me.
"I'm going to the house, Chris wants to talk again" I roll my eyes.
"I mean it's been a month, you should know what you want to do by now right?" She asks. I wasn't sure what I wanted, I had time to process everything but it was such a big betrayal.
"Obviously I love him but he cheated once, Who is to say that he won't do it again?" I state, watching Georgia try to find a response.
"Honestly Luce, you either stay with him and learn to forget about it and move on, or you leave him and find someone else, but that's hard considering your baby is now involved" She says, attempting to give me her best judgement.
"I know, it's just frustrating as hell George" I sigh, trying to figure out how the hell to go about this.
"I know baby" She says as she begins to rubs my back.
"I'm gonna change and get going, probably need to figure out where we go from here" I say, trying to get myself together.
I change into something that I feel remotely good in considering I'm huge now, but something that'll still make me feel good. It's hard to stunt on your 'ex who isn't your ex' when you're blown up like a balloon.
