Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 10

*jihoon*

minghao slammed the door in front of my face. i didnt even moved an inched where i stood right before he did it. i just want to help. i just want him to share his problems to us. i care for him. i care for the people close to me. i just. . just want him to feel that we are here.

i heave a sighed. my effort would continuously in vain if he closed the door consecutive times. it wasnt my fault. as long as i dont want to let him handle those by his own, but if he keeps slamming the door right in front of my face, then ill let him. i just wish he can survive.

i started to walk down the staircase to reached for my unit. i feel really down today. im not used to see one of my friends being like that, oh well, seokmin and wonwoo are great pretenders and actors. they hide perfectly of what they are feeling right now. how i wish i also have those ability. my brows furrowed when i saw someone standing in front of my unit. i walked towards it.

"how the fvck did you get here?" i asked soonyoung with low voice.

he smiled to me but it faded when he saw my face. "h-hey are you alright? you look sad. . and pissed?"

i shook my head. "its nothing! go awaㅡ"

"jihoon? are you there?"

"the fvck!"

i immediately opened my door's unit and i forced to push soonyoung inside. as long as i dont let someone in on my unit, but i just can't let jeonghan hyung saw us like this. they will dig deeper mostly now that soonyoung really want to get close to me. i tried to smile not so awkwardly to him when we get to face each other.

"are you with someone? i heard you shouting?"

see?

i shook my head. "its nothing. its just. .minghao. yeah minghao." im sorry hao, but that's the only excuse that i have.

his brows knitted. "minghao is here?"

"yeah in his unit."

he was about to say something or asked something but i immediately threw myself inside my unit. i locked it thrice so that no one in my friends could get inside without my consent. i turned around to see soonyoung roaming around my unit. this is the first time i let someone in on my property. even my friends didnt get any glimpse of what my unit looked like.

i placed my bags on the couch and walked passed by him to the kitchen. i opened the fridge looking for something he could eat. after i saw some slice of cakes there, i put those in the table along with coca-cola canned drink. i went to the salas to put those on the coffee table so that soonyoung could sit.

"you're really into music." he said in amusement. he even read some lyrics pinned on the wall.

"as what you're seeing."

he turned his gaze to me. he's smiling ear to ear. i pointed out the cake i served. he nodded and went straight to sit next to me. i moved over more than fifteen inches away from him. im not really fond with skinships.

"so why are you looked so pissed earlier?" he asked drinking the coca-cola canned drink i brought.

i rolled my eyes. "the hell you care."

"of course i care. i like you and im interested in you, remember?"

"you're too straightforward." i looked away when his gaze went up to me. "why is it so easy for you to say those words?"

he smiled and leaned his back on the couch. "well no matter how easy it is for me to say it, the harder i could get you. so its fair."

i rolled my eyes again. i grabbed my bag so that i could distract myself from his stares. he's been staring at me like one straight minute now. we went silence but i heard him eating the cake i served.

"i want to know what made you pissed." i shifted my gaze to him and was about to protest again when cut me sooner. "dont ask why i care. i already told you, right?"

"trust me ji, your secrets safe with me."

i arched a brow. "you really do want to know, huh?"

he licked his lower lip before the side of those rose up, he nodded still eyes fixated to me. i heave a sighed.

"minghao. ." i look down getting emotional now. "he has a problem, yet he didnt tell us what. we. . we just want to help. we just want him to feel that we'll be there for him in any battles."

"we are family."

"you really value your friends, aint you?" i unconsciously nodded. of course i value each one of them. "maybe minghao's not ready to tell his problems to you. let him be. it really takes time. thats normal. dont force him to open up."

i raised my gaze to him. "you think so?"

he nodded. "yeah, all you have to do is to wait until he can open up about the matter. just be there for him no matter what."

i couldn't say anything. he was like. . right. maybe minghao just needs time to ready himself to open up about the topic to us. as long as i wanted to help him right now, but if he's not ready with it, it'll be in vain. all we really have to do is to wait. we'll just be there for him no matter what. we'll not leave him behind.

"its okay. you'll get through this, soon."

i let out a small smile.

"thanks."