Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 32

*jihoon*

"have you heard the latest news, hyung?"

i am with seokmin right now, heading to the cafeteria. only the both of us are available at this hour, others still has an ongoing classes. good thing that seokmin is with me right now, i couldnt do it by my own today. i need a companion. a friend to accompany me.

i shrugged my shoulder. "there are lots of latest news, seoks. which one are you talking about?"

"the one our college has."

i dont know if he's mocking me or what. but because i dont want to be obvious i keep my mouth shut and maintained my straight face while i heard seokmin's soft giggles probably mocking me, really. i looked at him and shot him a death glare. both of us know what was the latest news he were talking about. i knew it since early this morning, he dont have to emphasize and reminded me that again.

he put his hands over my shoulder while we are making our way to the cafeteria. seokmin is really taller than me, sometimes some of the students always got the wrong idea that seokmin is my brother or something. . because of our surnames too. sucks right? this horsey-donkey seokmin is my sibling? hah.

"still hyung, i cant believe. i thought he's certain to you." then he shook his head.

i hit him on his side using my elbow. he winced which made me smile a little. i shrugged my shoulder. "i also thought." the side of my lips rose up and rolled my eyes somewhere.

if you are asking what kind of news ive heard earlier? well, simple. soonyoung and lina are officially together now. they are back together. thats what i heard earlier this morning, those are sucks but i must condemn. well i can see through soonyoung that he's still not over with the girl, and of course the girl also. for sure they are both happy. and im happy for them, okay?

well, i hope i really is.

after what happened at the hospital last night, we havent really talked or even crossing the same path even if we are in the same building. thats fine to me though. i wouldn't get pissed by seeing his goddamn face. for sure, if i once got to meet him face to face again, the memories and the words he always told me back then will automatically flushed through my head. and i dont want it to happen.

those are still explicit in my memory. i want to forget those but i just couldn't. i dont know.

seokmin and i ordered the same foods. we waited for about a minute before we take our orders. i suggested to eat outside than eating at this full crowded cafeteria. he didnt refuse though, so we decided to eat our lunch at the nearest bench outside but seokmin blocked my way and forced me to turn around. my forehead creased for his sudden actions, he even covered my both eyes using his free hand.

"yah seoks what are you doing?"

he didnt answer, but instead i heard him muttering a cursed before he forced me to walk away from the bench we about to sit. i tried to peek what's happening but he tugged me in my shoulder harshly and pulled me away along with his pace. i pinch the side of his stomach after we got away from the cafe. i did glared at him.

"what do you think you have done?" i asked arching a brow. we are walking now to reach for the nearest gazebo.

"i dont want you to get hurt, hyung."

i hit him playfully in his arm. "why would i be huh?"

he giggled. "i just dont want you to see that scene. cause i know your heart may break."

the side of my lips rose up. "its breaking already, seoks. what more?" i took a bite of my burger to prevent losing the shits inside of me again.

the more i remember him crying and looking so devastated in front of me last night, really had a pang on my chest. jeonghan hyung wasnt really lying, when he told me that i am already falling. the more i deny it, the more it will show up. he was right. i fell.

but why does it has to be him? of all people, of all anyone but why did my heart choose him? our prof told me, that i can love anyone, but i ended up loving anyone but him. i tried so hard not to fall. . but im yeah, i just couldn't.

after we got to eat our lunch toegther, seokmin walked me to my classroom. i told him that i can handle myself, but he said he dont want me to see breaking. i laughed at his reason but i appreciated his efforts on me. i truly and really value my friends over everything, and anything. we bade each others goodbyes and told us to meet later after class to visit minghao on the hospital.

the class took almost three hours. it was one of our major thats why it doubles the time unlike the minor one. the prof remind us about our upcoming project which he discussed last meeting, i havent gotten an inspiration to do so, i need much time. after that, i tidying up my things and placed those back on my bag. i stood up and and tucked my bag on my shoulder. i fished out my phone to informed seokmin that im on my way to our said rendezvous.

i went out of the room after that. but the moment i stepped out of the room, my eyes widened and my heart started to thumped faster over and over once my eyes met soonyoung's cresent eyes. i compose myself and tried hard to maintain my straight face like it was all nothing. that i dont have any good memories with him. like we didnt see each other being soft and more. we are both walking down the hallways but in different directions.

he stared at me while we are getting closer towards to each other. i can see nothing but his emotionless eyes and face. i blink and swallowed hard. every step that i take, seems to slower time to time. just like what my heart is breaking. we are just inches away from each other, i keep my pace the same until my heart skipped it beats when we passed by at each other as if we are strangers. i heave a relief when i felt his presence are no longer around.

i ran towards our rendezvous and when i got there, wonwoo held my both shoulders and stared at me straight to my eyes. others are confused as to why wonwoo is worried enough when he saw me.

"why are you crying?"

"h-ha?" i immediately reach for my cheeks and i laughed when it was swelled up with water. i dont know that im crying already. what a foolish act jihoon.

wonwoo hugged me and tapped my shoulder. "its alright, you're gonna be just fine."

"we love you hyung."

i dont know but the way they stare at me makes me cried louder. im being soft again. this is not me. this is not the jihoon that i know.