Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 59

*jihoon*

i scoop an ample amount of ice cream i had holding and inserted those in my mouth not minding how cold it was and how it will affect my bare teeth inside. i held my head low as i keep playing the ice cream using the spoon in circular motion.

i was really thinking about what happened earlier, and i still can't believe that my both parents are now separating with each other. i couldn't imagine it until now. i grew as a man with the both of them. i witnessed how they exchange sweet messages and i love you's with each other. i was there to witnessed how dad helped my mom to stand up when she fall. i witnessed them. i witnessed them loving each other more than anybody else.

but why? why did they suddenly had to split up?

"soons. ." i called his name in low tone. he was just inches away from me, and im sure he heard me calling his name.

"yes babe?" i told you, he heard. i played with my foot in the air and scoop an ice cream. we decided to stopped by at the playground nearby after we got our breakfast in the cafe. we are sitting at the top of the monkey bars.

i shot him a sideward glance. "do you believe in that. ." i said and heave a sighed. "did they really fall out of love?"

soonyoung shook his head and he swallowed the ice cream inside his mouth before he spoke up. "i dont think so. people cant fall out love for someone." then he looked at me with so much emotion in his eyes. "but we cant judge their decision, they both wanted those in the first place. . as what ive heard earlier."

"you think so? people cant fall out of love for someone?" i asked arching a brow.

he nodded again. "yup, babe. we can outgrew someone, lose interest on someone but that doesnt mean we're not caring for them at all. and care stands for love." he smiled to me and he eat ample amout of ice cream. "for example for the both of us. . if ever we would split up, or break up, that doesnt mean that ill stop caring and loving you."

"it may be not the same love i felt when im in love with you, but still, i care. see? no one's ever falling out of love. we cant fall out of love for someone."

i smiled. "so that means. ."

he looked at me and he smiled. "yeah. my love for you wont fade. even we broke up."

"but it cant be the same love you felt when were together." i argued.

"i will still be loving you the way im loving you right now, babe. i want my future with you. and i can't see anyone but you."

i bit my lower lip and held my head low. my heart beating so fast because of those fluttering words like he was really that sure of having me as his future. i didnt see that coming. im plussed. and stilled on my spot. this kwon soonyoung really knows how to melt my heart and fall for him deeper than i imagine.

i looked at him and he was staring at me lovingly. "babe. . i wanna ask you something."

"fire it, babe."

"why me?" i asked curiosity plastered on my face.

i was really that curious as to why anyone but he choose to fall for me. i wanna know why. it felt so foreign having someone who would value me. i was really asking myself, of all anyone why does he had to fall for a person like me? who do nothing but to scold anyone, judge anyone, ignore anyone, someone who only trusts his friends, and someone who doesnt want to be the center of attention. in short his total opposite. but why?

why me?

the way he was staring at me didnt fade. he smile to me from ear to ear making his eyes formed into two straight lines and his cheeks are puffing side to side. how cute. cute that it seems like he was innocent but he didnt. he was really wild in bed, as what i had proven last night.

"simple," he leaned closer to me still eyes fixated with mine. "because why not you?"

that made my cheeks tainted a pink tint in no time. i looked away and eat a spoonful amount of ice cream to prevent my cheeks to tainted more pink in it. my heart keeps melting. i heard him chuckled.

"i want an honest answer, soonyoung. why me?"

"i already answered those right? isnt that enough?"

"i want an explanation."

"fine." he sighed, giving up now. a smile crept into my face as he started to open his mouth to speak. "you were like an anomalies happened in my life. someone like you was impossible to find, really ji. the first time i saw you, im plussed at how cute you are. how persistent you are to do your job, how focused you are to achieve something, and how you valued your friends more than anything. those are the reason why my heart suddenly beats towards you."

"to be honest ji, i tried to divert my attention to you. i really tried my best to find a hole that will make me looked at you in disgust and for my feelings will fade. . and i did." i arched a brow. he find something thats off to me yet he still pursued himself to me and now owning almost all of me, huh? "i find you a judgmental person. . well you dont deny it either. thats makes me hate you. . but packing tape jihoon those are just some informations that made me like you even more. i did not know that even your imperfections, it still perfect in my eyes. fuck you jihoon i love you so much."

i laughed at that part. were almost a month now as lovers and he always cursing when i said something cheesy to him. he cursed me but there's still i love you in the end. he continued talking.

"and even though you called me an attention seeker back then. . i still find those attractive."

"because you really were." i argued.

he laughed. "and that was the day i realized that, if im an attention seekerㅡyou say, then why didnt used that to gain your attention right?" i nodded. "i did everything ji. i did everything to have your attention. i really did. i dont know where this started but i know right at that moment when i first saw you, i knew i can fall for anyone but you."

"you are more than just a human to me, ji. you are an angel, a very cute angel. no matter how you scold me and push me away before, i still reach for you. cause you made me realize that if you love someone, you wont give up on them even after everything. you made. ." then he held his chest where his heart is located. "you made me the kwon soonyoung i never knew before. and im looking forward to grow more. . with you, together."

i smiled sweetly. "you're whipped."

"only for you, kwon jihoon."

i held his hand and plays with it. "i wanna slammed my lips to you right now, but were in public soㅡhey where are we going?!"

he pulled me along with his pace making me jumped from the monkey bars to the ground. good thing that i balance myself and that i wont fall on the ground with my butt. he pulled me along with his as we run away from the playground.

"really babe where are we going?" i asked still running.

"i had been precluding myself to kiss you an hour now and i want to smooch my lips with you."

i just laughed and run as fast as we could to reach our house back so that we could kiss and cuddle each other alone.