Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 38

3rd

seokmin poke jeonghan's side stomach using his elbow and once jeonghan shifted his gaze to the younger, seokmin pointed at jihoon using his both lips. jeonghan followed where seokmin's lips pointing at then he saw jihoon. . jihoon who's glaring at his shusi in front while continuously sipping his one bottle of cola using the straw.

jeonghan heave a sighed. "yah jihoon-yah!" he called jihoon as loud as he can.

jihoon flinched a little making him glare at the older. jeonghan shook his head, the others are just watching him. . actually they had been staring at jihoon since it was really silent. looks like it was zoning out and his mind was too pre-occupied with something. they wanna know why, but if jihoon still acts like that, they wouldn't know.

"you could have called me in a nice way!" jihoon retorted and stopped sipping the cola since it was already empty. he drunk those while staring at the shusi in front. zoning out.

minghao shook his head. "this supposed to be a happy dinner together. but you looked like you are in another dimension. we cant feel you hyung." minghao said and he pouted.

jihoon heave a sighed. "i-im sorry, i was just thinking about something. lets eat!" no matter how much he tried to cheer up his voice, but he's still cracking at the end.

the five of them exchange glances before they shrugged their shoulders and went to their respective seats. jihoon is in between wonwoo and jeonghan, then the rest are in front of them. they started eating but jihoon's doing it slowly, like he dont have any appetite to eat. when he placed kimchi on his plate, he took the chopstick and started to eat in a slow pace. he munch the kimchi inside his mouth and his eyes froze on the thing in front of him.

no matter how much he wanted to erase those scene in his mind, but he couldn't. it keeps picturing in his head and it creates pang on his chest, deeper that he couldn't retrieve it even if he wanted to. he didnt know why he's acting like as if soonyoung betrayed him, like soonyoung had cheated on him. . when in the first place, soonyoung and him arent together. he dont have any promises and words to hold back, and to suffer this kind of heart break. and he dont have any rights to feel like breaking.

soonyoung and him are nothing. . they are nothing.

but why does his heart is breaking like lovers do?

"hELLO EARTH TO LEE JIHOON!"

jihoon shut his eyes, but when he does those, a tear slowly escape from his both eyes. the five of them saw it which made them nervous. jeonghan and wonwoo who are on his side, rushed to him and caressed jihoon's back, the other dont know what to do as they stare at crying jihoon in front of them. jihoon's grip on the chopsticks tighten like he poured out all his anger on that poor thing.

"j-ji hyung, the chopsticks." seungkwan said cracking his voice seeing the poor chopsticks being broken using jihoon's grip.

"hey whats the matter, ji?" wonwoo asked calming himself but he couldn't.

jeonghan hugged him on the side giving jihoon's flowery words. as he felt jeonghan's warm hugs, he let out the sobbed and cried hard on his shoulder. others rushed to him and give jihoon a warmest group hug ever just like what they did to minghao before.

after a minute, they freed the hug to give jihoon some air. wonwoo wipe jihoon's tears. all of them are looking at jihoon waiting for some words that will come up to his small mouth. they waited, until jihoon finally utter a word.

"i-it hurts. ." he held the left part of his chest. "here. . deeper. its breaking. i can feel it." slowly but cracking.

"w-why? d-do i have the rights to feel this way? w. . we arent even together. i pushed him away for me keep my heart, but why does it still breaking as if he was that important to me?"

"because you love him, ji." jeonghan retorted.

jihoon nodded. "i-i know, but why? i mean why?. . do i love him deeper than i imagine?"

"you're doing it right now." seokmin answered.

"we arent even together."

"even if." wonwoo argued. "even if ji, even if you are together or not, once you fall you really gonna suffer breaking. its not about because you had a relatioship with him, its because you love him. your feelings."

"if it hurts, then its love." seungkwan said. "its normal ji hyung. you're just loving, its part of falling in love."

"but. . do i deserve this?" he pointed at himself still crying. "this feeling. fuck it really hurts."

"yah yah, as seungkwan's said, its part of falling in love. yes ji hyung, it really hurts." minghao nodded. "and we deserve it since it is the path we decided to walk. dont worry, you'll gonna grow after this. it'll be over soon."

"whatever you have in your mind right now, please dont focus on it. dont devoured yourself on that thought inside your head. dont let your system eat you alive, ji." jeonghan reminded him.

"suffering heart breaks while loving someone else is normal, ji hyung. its love."

they let jihoon calmed down after he cried over and over again. after that, they continued to eat as if there's nothing happened. seungkwan and seokmin tried their best to make jihoon laughed, it wasn't working at first but in the end, it did. jihoon is soft towards his friends and for all the important and special person in his life. . thats why he's crying and being fragile when it comes to soonyoung. .

he never knew that that guy could be this something special to him. he never knew that he would fall. . he said he can love anyone else, but again and again, he fall for only one person. it was anyone but kwon soonyoung.