Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 81

*jihoon*

"let's end this."

silence ensued us. i stilled on my spot not knowing what to react. i was just staring at his cresent eyes that are looking back at mine with so much emotions with it, but even though there are much emotions, i dont know what was really his reaction or what was his feeling right now in the inside. because mine. . it felt like breaking.

over and over.

i swallowed hard and blink thrice. "i expected to hear that. . i was just waiting for you to say those." but no matter how i told him im ready enough and ive waited enough, it still hurts knowing that this was the end. "but c-can you tell me why?" i tried so hard not to crack my voice, but the thorn blocking my throat couldn't let me speak properly.

i saw how he swallowed hard. he tried so hard to maintain his eye contact with me so that he could convince me that whatever he would say, was all coming from his heart. that he wasnt regretful for that. that he was. . desperately wanting me to let him go.

i told you, i could let him go even before if he just told me that earlier.

"i-i outgrew you. . i fall out of love." he said slowly like he was thinking if those are the real reason why he wanted to me let him go.

i could see it through his eyes.

the side of my lips rose up. "fall out of love? outgrew?" i laughed forcefully but water started to filled both corners of my eyes. "what a coincidence that it was the words you told me you will never feel for me yet you are here making it the reason why you want me to let you go. you told me your love for me wont fade. ."

"forget those jihoon. im sorry i ate what i just said. forget those like you didnt hear me saying it to you. forget me jihoon."

he held his head low but i can still see how he swallowed hard. his jaw are moving aggressively. he heave a sighed and raised his gaze to looked back at mine. i maintained my eyes on him even though those are slowly swelling up with tears.

how could i forget those when those are the only words i keep on holding? he made me a promise, he sworn that to me. i hold onto that words. i believe to those words. i thought he would actually do it. but here he is right now, telling me that those are the reason why he changed drastically by how he was treating me.

i looked away and wipe my tears. forget jihoon. you should. those were just a lie. a lie coming from an asshole. a lie coming from the player kwon soonyoung. a lie you must forget. what a white and beautiful lies was that.

i nodded and looked at back at him. his eyes started to get teary. i heave a sighed. "am i not enough soonyoung?"

over with the outgrew thingy, i want to know if i was enough or what based on his reasons. i want to know if im enough for him just to let me go that easy.

he nodded. "y-you are more than enough, jihoon."

"then stay." i retorted fast making him taken aback from that. "im enough right? then why did you have to reason out that you outgrew me when im enough to you? if im enough, you wouldnt going to feel that way towards me."