Anyone but You :: soonhoon

ABY :: 45

*jihoon*

i groaned in frustration and panned my head side to side while staring at the lyrics im writing as of the moment. i couldnt think straight properly, i just wrote all the words that would come up in my head.

i leaned my back against my swiveling chair and played with my lips still eyes fixated with the white sheet of paper in front of me. im doing my spring final requirements, three weeks left before the deadline. it was the same project as seokmin and seungkwan had also. i dont know if soonyoung has this kind of requirements too on their major.

i bit my lower lip and pulled my chair closer to the table when the words suddenly popped up in my head. my lips rose up in amusement while writing all the words that my mind splitted.

although i dont want to see you, i miss you

although i hate you, i miss you

i dont undertand myself as well

"whom do i miss?"

i clicked my tounge and massage the bridge of my nose as i leaned my back against the chair. i shut my eyes firmly. why cant i think straight? why cant i focus just for once? arg. its getting me frustrated time to time.

my chair moved backwards by itself. i opened my eyes again after hearing soonyoung's giggles. him, smiling while watching some choreographies on his phone greeted me. he was on my bed, lying there calmly as if they dont have some requirements to do.

yeah, he was here on my room. its not that i want him to sleep here but its about the aircon on the guestroom got damage and it wasnt operating anymore. he suggested that he will sleep at the couch for tonight, but my conscience didnt let him so i suggested that he can sleep on my room tonight. so yeah, he was there watching some videos on his phone.

he was wearing his partnered navy blue pyjamas which suits him. his raven hair disheveled like a baby. he laughed again as if the video he was watching was really funny. i rolled my eyes when his gaze went to mine. i saw how he turned off his phone and he's staring at me intenly now. thats. . thats when i felt awkward yet, i can feel the zoo inside of me getting wild again.

"someone wants attention~"

i rolled my eyes. "i dont need your attention. i hate being the center of attention, remember?" i denied. but yeah. . it was half true. but when it comes to him, i want his full attention was on me, only.

arg. is this really what they call, falling in love? im getting selfish day by day.

"come here, babe. lets sleep." he opened his both arms as if he wanted to welcome me and sealed me with tight hugs.

i shook my head and went back to what im doing. but minute by minute, my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. i drunk one mug of coffee earlier yet why do i feel so sleepy? fucktard. i haven't even started anything for my requirements. i scratch my head and yawned secretly for soonyoung not to see.

i heard him giggling behind me. "see? you're sleepy. get your body here and lets sleep."

"i dont *yawn* want. i need to do this tonight."

"come on, babe. you can't do it if you're sleepy."

i turned my back and he's still smiling to me ear to ear. he parted his both arms again welcoming me to his. i heave a sighed and yawned. its almost midnight already, maybe thats the reason why im getting sleepy now. i stood up and started to walk towards him. his smile gets wider when he saw me approaching him.

i dont like skinship yet i found myself being wrapped around his both arms. it felt like home.

he let me buried my head on his toned chest. i felt him, showering my crown some small kisses which made my heart flutters in no time. he tighten the grip on my waist making our body closer to each other. i swear i dont like cuddling or having skinships except for my friends. . but here i am now. feeling home with his arms around me. i hummed in satisfaction when i felt comfortable hearing how fast his heart beat was, and how warm his hugs are.

"soons. ."

i bit my lower lip to prevent myself from giggling when i felt the vibrations of his body when he hummed in reponse. mygod kwon soonyoung.

"arent you going back to your home?" i asked muffling.

"im home, ji."

kwon soonyoung please stop making my heart melts! and please stop that cheesy words. you're making me fall in love with you more.

i shook my head. "i mean, to your family. arent you going to back to them?" i raised my head for me to see his reactions.

his grip losen a bit enough for us to see each other face to face. he licked his lower lip, "i dont want to. they're not treating me as one of them, so im not gonna treat them the sameㅡ"

"soons. ." i cutted him and i even punch his chest a little. "no matter how they treating you, or how much they despise you to death, dont do the same to them. dont get revenge or something. after all babe, he was still your father, he raised you even though he hate you the way you told me to. you are made by his spermcells, remember?"

i dont know but his giggles made me laugh. "and i must be thankful. . if he didnt get your mother pregnant, you wouldnt be here. i mean. . i wouldn't feel like home in your arms."

i saw how his ears turned red and how his cheeks tainted a pink tint on it. this is not the first time i saw him blushing, but when i saw it again, it gets more fascinating to see. fucktard kwon soonyoung, what did you do to me?!

"fuck babe, why are you like this? you're making my heart melt. ." he said and he even bit his lower lip. he looked at me with so much love in his eyes. "im plussed. i-i dont know what to say." i laughed and looked at him with the same intensity. he heave a sighed. "but still babe, and for sure they dont want me in that house again."

i shook my head. "and thats not enough reason for you not to come back. show them how strong you are, show them how capable you are. and always did good to them even though they hurted you so much." i smiled and reach for his cheeks. "dont give them a piece of your mind, but give them a piece of your heart. no matter how bad they did to you, dont ever, i mean ever dare to avenge them. let the karma do his thing, okay babe?"

he nodded and i laughed when a tear suddenly fall down on his eye. i wipe those away before giggling and buried my head on his chest again. he wrapped his arms to me and he kissed my crown over and over.

"thank you, babe. i dont really know what do to without you."

i hummed in reponse. i closed my eyes and scooted more closer to him feeling how warm his body are against me.

"i love you, jihoon."