Family over everything

Chapter 5

The Lowman family arrived at Gemma's house. Allison refused to even look at Happy. They went inside and Happy set the infant seat down so Allison could take Mason from the seat. The older three had run off the moment they entered the door. There were crow eaters in the kitchen and Allison recognized one of them as the girl Happy had been with the day of the gender scan. Allison held her son a little closer. Happy placed a hand on her lower back. She wanted so badly to snap on him and push him away but it wasn't appropriate at Gemma's place.

"Hey Allie," Jax entered the kitchen to get a peek at the new baby and to kiss his wife.

Tara smiled as he kissed her cheek.

"Hey Jax," Allison replied.

Tara was standing next to Allison just staring at the baby.

"Jax, don't you miss our boys being this little?" Tara asked him.

"You want another one?" Jax asked.

Tara smiled at him. Jax kissed her lips and grabbed a beer before leaving the kitchen. Happy went to kiss Allison's cheek before leaving the room. She moved away from him and was thankful that Mason began to fuss.

"Gem, is there somewhere I can nurse him quietly?" Allison asked.

Gemma nodded and led her to a guest bedroom. Tara had followed them.

"You guys doing any better?" she asked.

Allison got Mason settled and eating before looking up at Tara. She gently shook her head.

"I just don't trust him," she said.

"Understandable," Tara said, taking a seat at the end of the bed.

"I am just sick of the cheating and feeling like we don't matter to him other than to be a status symbol that he can show off," Allison said.

Tara nodded. She understood where Allison was coming from. She had felt like that a lot when she and Jax had been first back together. It had taken a lot of talking.

Tara kept Allison company while she fed the baby. Allison heard his boots before  she heard his voice.

"Hey Al," he said.

"What?" she asked.

"You ok?"

"I'm just feeding Mason. You can come in here."

Happy appeared in the doorway. He nodded to Tara who excused herself from the room. Happy sat in the spot that Tara had just vacated.

"You ok?" he asked.

"I don't know," she said.

"What do you mean? What's up?"

"She is out there and I don't like having women you have fucked around our kids."

He sighed. He was never really going to understand her insecurities especially right after she had a baby.

"I can't exactly take it back, Al," he said.

She nodded. She really just wanted to go home and hide in her room. It was where Ryder got it from. He would hide from everyone as well. She looked into her husband's face. He was just watching her.

"I don't know if I can do this," she said, honestly.

"What?" he asked.

"Continue playing happy family with you. It's obvious that you don't want to be here. I just had a baby and I'm not in shape now,"

"Al, you look incredible. You just gave me another child. Fuck babe, they cut you open,"

"And now I'm a flabby mess."

He moved in before she could stop him. His lips pressed to hers just to shut her up. His hand went to her hair. She involuntarily moaned into his mouth.

"You are the most beautiful woman in the world," he said, pulling away.

She shook her head. He nodded and rested his forehead against hers. She looked at her son and broke the seal he had on her. Happy moved back so she could burp their son and fix her shirt. She moved to the other side and let him nurse from there as well. She was on the verge of tears again. Her hormones were so out of whack and getting on her nerves. She just wanted to be normal again.

"I love you Allison," he said.

She nodded. She couldn't bring herself to say it back. Once Mason was done eating, she burped him again. Happy took him into his arms while she fixed her clothes. He left the room with the baby in his arms. She slowly followed not sure how to take what had just happened in the room.

Gemma smiled when she returned to the kitchen. Allison gave her a small smile in return.

"Anything I can help with?" she asked.

Gemma shook her head and shooed her from the kitchen.

"This is for you and that handsome new little man," she said.

Allison sighed as she went to check on her kids. She found her five year old in tears while her eight year old was yelling at the crow eater that Happy had been with. Allison saw red immediately.

"What the fuck is going on?" she demanded.

A few of the guys had just stepped out the back door to smoke. One of them was Happy. He saw what was going on and moved over to them right away.

"Ryder, what happened?" he asked.

"She told Noah she is gonna be our new mom and that you don't want to be with mama anymore because she is a fat cow," Ryder said, looking more like his father than ever with the angry look on his face.

Happy crouched down in front of his five year old. Allison grabbed the girl by her hair and threw her to the pavement on Gemma's patio.

"Noah, look at me. I am not leaving your mama. I promise. I love her and you guys so much," he said.

Noah shook his head and ran off. He sighed but turned his attention to the two women.

"Bitch you will never be in my children's lives. You may have been in my husband's bed but it will be a cold day in hell before you ever play mommy to my children," Allison growled.

"Get used to me sweetheart. You are just a dried up old hag that can't keep your man satisfied but don't worry. I have it all under control." the girl snapped.

"Bitch."

Allison punched her. The girl grabbed her belly as if trying to protect it.

"I'm pregnant and it's his," she said quickly.

The fight immediately went out of Allison. She looked at Happy and then back at the girl. Allison walked over to Happy and slapped him. She went to find her children. She was done and going home.