Spider-Girl

Chapter 13: Not goodbye

It's been a few days since Bella's birthday; Wynonna is kind of down because Jasper's been super distant since then. She has been spending all of her times with her kids, playing and helping Eliza potty train and walk more.

Wyn flinches a little when someone knocks on her door. She looks at Nigel, who is sitting in the floor - talking to Eliza mindlessly. Wynonna smiles at her kids and she walks to the door. Her face falls a bit when she finds Jasper and Esme there.

             "Nigel, watch your sister, I'll be right outside," Wynonna says.

           "Okay, mom," Nigel replies, finally calling Wyn mom for the very first time.

            Wynonna feels her heart melt at the sound and she steps out onto the porch with Esme and Jasper. Esme tells her that the Cullens are leaving after Jasper's near slip. Then she left.

             "This isn't goodbye," Jasper says as he brushes the hair back on Wynonna's face. "Just know that, okay? This is not goodbye, but I won't be in contact. None of us will."

             Wynonna grimaces when she hearts a pain in her heart. "Oh... you're leaving me?"

            "I'm sorry," Jasper whispers as he takes a step back. "And know, you're allowed to move on while I'm gone because I'm ending this, I'm putting an end to us. No matter how much it hurts either one of us, I have to do this."

           "You don't have to, you're choosing to," Wynonna says. "I'd be willing to stay yours, even if you're across the country... possibly. But you're choosing to break up with me, Jasper. That's your choice. So, this is goodbye."

            Nigel watches as his new mom sits on the couch and cries. He walks over and he hugs her.

           "He'll be back," Nigel whispers. "But if not, forget about it. He's not worth crying for, mom."

           Wynonna kisses the six year old's head. "Thank you, kiddo. I love you."

             "I love you, too, mom," Nigel replies. "What's for breakfast?"

          "Hmm...?" Wynonna ponders with her fingers up to her chin, making Nigel laugh. "Pancakes?"

          "Blueberry?" Nigel suggests.

           "Why, certainly my young fellow," Wynonna muses, trying to push Jasper's dumping her to the very back of her brain. "Watch Eliza."

Wynonna goes to the kitchen and she whips up some blueberry pancakes with fresh blueberries for her and the kids. She can hear Nigel and Eliza laughing rather loudly from the living room. They give her a reason to forget about Jasper. She's going to keep it together for the kids. Her foul mood would effect them, so she'll keep her head up and a smile on her face, to keep her kids happy.

Wynonna feeds her kids their breakfast and they sit around the house until Charlie calls. Bella had went into the woods with Edward and hasn't returned yet. She goes over and Sue immediately brings the kids inside while Wyn goes to help look over the map with her uncle Charlie, Billy Black, and Harry Clearwater.

"I'll call the Cullens again," Charlie claims. "Her note said she and Edward went for a walk."

"They're gone, left town, uncle Charlie," Wynonna states, remembering Jasper's not goodbye.

"Hospital said doctor Cullen got a big job offer somewhere else," Harry adds from beside Wyn, and then placed a reassuring hand on Charlie's shoulder. "We'lol find her."

Wynonna notices something in the distance and she spots a rez boy leaving the woods. Carrying her younger cousin.

"Uncle Charlie!" She says loudly and quickly. "There!"

            "That's Sam Uley," Billy says to himself, but Wynonna hears him as Charlie takes off running across the yard to get Bella from Sam.

               "He's hot," Wynonna points out, making Harry laugh a little. "I'm single, I can look and make comments. Buuuut he's more than likely taken, so that's a no go."

              "I'm sorry, dear, but he is spoken for," Billy muses.

             Wynonna smiles at Harry and Billy before she goes to hold Bella, Sue brings the kids with her to La Push - promising she'd watch them. And since Nigel's going to an elementary school on the rez, that'd be good for him to stay the night. He can go to school easier the following morning.

              Wynonna holds Bella while she cries quietly over Edward leaving. Nona is more pissed than sad that the Cullens have left them, but she's not letting it get to her. She has two kids to raise, she has no time for heartache.

           Sure, she is hurting because Jasper was eager to break up with her before leaving Forks. Wyn would have been willing to try a far distance relationship with him, she was crazy about him. She won't say love yet, because he wasn't around her much. He didn't trust himself around her until up to the day of Bella's eighteenth birthday.

                 "Shh, I'm right here," Wynonna whispers to Bella as her sobs grown a bit louder. "I'm right here, Bella, I'm right here. Cry it out, cousin. Cry it out."