Call of The Sea (Spain: Series 2)

CHAPTER 39

With Mature Content (Oh shit)

INDIRECTLY

"Baby, let me in." Wala sa sariling nilakihan ko ang siwang sa cabin at ilang sandali pa ay tahimik itong pumasok.

Sinara ko muna ang pinto saka nanatiling nakatayo roon at tinignan siya kung paano ito umupo sa bunk bed. He carefully put down his guitar before looking at me. Hindi maawat ang kaba at sikip sa puso ko nang makita ang mga mata nitong mapupula na parang may pinipigilan itong luha.

He raised his hand while his hypnotizing eyes were on me. Without my mind's consent, I approached him then held his hand. "Are you tired? You still wanna talk to me? Hmm?"

Hindi ako nakaiwas ng tingin at iniisip ang tamang isasagot. Hindi naman talaga ako pagod physically but I'm tired mentally and emotionally. Pagod na akong makinig sa mga salitang dumadagdag sa bigat ng kalooban ko pero hindi naman ito maaalis kung hindi ako magtatanong kaya ngayon na kahit pagod ang loob ko. Gusto ko pa rin ng eksplenasyon at makikinig ako.

"What was the score between you and Cyanery in the past?" Derektang tanong ko saka bahagyang binitawan ang kamay nito.

Hindi na ito nagulat sa tanong at imbes ay inabot niya ang baywang ko at napasinghap ako nang hatakin niya ako sa tabi niya. Inayos ko ang pagkakaharap ko sa kanya at yun din ang ginawa niya. He was silent at the moment while looking straight into my eyes as if seeking for right answers before heaving a sigh.

"We are childhood friends." Paninimula nito. "Together with Ryle, we entered same school from primary to secondary."

Kahit pa kinakabahan ay tumango ako at nag antay ng dagdag niya. "At that time, lola from my dad's side was diagnosed having a Coronary Heart disease." He stopped for a bit then looked at me hesitatingly.

Dahil doon ay biglang umurong ang kagustuhan kong malaman ang lahat dahil sa pagdadalawang isip nito. Ayokong pilitin siyang sabihin sa akin ang mga bagay na malaki ang halaga sa kanya lalong lalo na at damay ang kanyang lola. Kung yun ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit bawal kami sa isa't isa then, umiyak man ako't lahat bahala na.

"Don't force yourself, Xav. If you couldn't say it to me, it's fine." I said sincerely but he just looked at me, held my hands before shaking his head

"I need to tell you these things all of which that should clear your misinterpretations. Listen very careful, Star. My lola was sick," Seryosong sabi nito habang ang mga mata ay nasakin. Kumakabog ng husto ang puso ko pero hindi ko iyon pinansin at nanatiling tahimik.

"But she wants me to marry Cyanery. Cyanery was close to her since she always visit our home in Spain, my lola was desperate to have a great grandchild by promising me to Cyanery." Hindi makapaniwalang napatingin ako sa kanya pero seryoso lang ang mga mata nito.

"At hindi ito magpapagamot kung hindi ko iyon gagawin. So to urge her to make her enter major medications, I made Cyanery pretend to be my girlfriend for as long as my lola sees us every time. Noong una ayaw pa ni Cyan but kalaunan ay napa-oo ko ito para makapagpagamot na si lola."

Mula sa pagkakaseryoso ay lumamabot ang mga mata nito habang ang labi ko ay nakaawang na dahil sa rebelasyong nalalaman pero may bumabagabag pa rin sa akin.

"When lola saw us together, she instantly went to Norway to spend her days being treated from her illness and at that time, I saw you approaching our way. You looked annoying, you sounded so loud every time the reason why I refused getting into you but damn, It was to late to realize how I have love your loudness." Dahil doon ay uminit ang mga matang tinignan ko ito as he looked at me in pain and vulnerable.

"I denied my attraction, I treated you coldly, I tried shutting you off because I thought I can really marry and love Cyanery for real but I couldn't, something is blocking me, someone is blocking me doing so." Because of too much pain and confusion I shook my head.