HURT •Jaden Hossler•

Chapter 29

After that all happened I stayed in my room practically all day. I didn't wanted to talk to anyone to this point, not even Jaden. We cuddled for an hour in complete silence. He just left a few minutes ago, because I asked him to just let me be alone for a bit. I was more upset now then angry. The words that Anthony said kept repeating in my head, making me overthink everything. And if one thing can drive me insane, then it's my own mind. I thought I knew everything by now, but apparently not. I don't know who my dad is, maybe Samira is not even my real mom. I'm just so done with everything. The girls have been trying to be with me and getting me to talk, but I'm just not in the mood. I don't want to start anything, and I for sure don't want to see or talk to Avani. It makes me upset that she thinks about me like that, even tho she knows I'm not like that. And that she is siding with Anthony makes it even worse. And Anthony? I don't even know. Like I hate fighting with him, but he just keeps hurting me and I'm not going to accept his apology that fast this time.

I hear a knock on my door and I pulled my AirPods out. "Yeah?", I asked barely audible. I always tend to lose my voice so fast. Addison opened the door and gave me a little smile. "Are you okay?", she asked closing the door. I shook my head and looked down. "What happened back there?", she asked sitting next to me. "I just got angry, you know", I said not making eye contact. "You don't 'just' get angry for no reason. Something pushed you over", she said. "Okay, fine. Anthony yelled at me for Josh kissing me, even tho I didn't kiss back. Then he said that I need to stop doing whatever I'm doing. And starts talking about Jaden and I. Then he called me a whore, that's just great. And then Avani starts with me too", I said rambling. "Wow... okay", she said looking confused. "And I feel like Jaden is not really happy with me either at the moment", I said biting my lip. "What do you mean?", Addison asked. "He seemed mad or upset with me", I said. "He just doesn't want you to get hurt like that", she said shrugging, "he cares a lot about you, like all of us do" "I never wanted him to see me like this angry, or anyone for that matter", I said, "I really hate the person I've become." I looked down just feeling even more upset. "It's not your fault, okay? And you are a really beautiful girl, inside and out. So don't tear yourself down like that", she said grabbing my hands and squeezing them.

We talked for a little bit when Bryce came in. "We're leaving in a bit", he said towards Addison. She nodded and he shot me a little smile. I gave one back and he left. "Where are you going?", I asked. "We're going out for dinner", she said, "if you want to come, you can." "I don't really feel like going out right now", I said. "Okay, if you change your mind. We are going to the steakhouse", she said standing up. I nodded and she gave me a tight hug. "We all want you to be okay", she whispered pulling away. "Thanks Addi", I said with a weak smile and with that she left. Within half an hour everyone left and I was alone once again. I didn't bother to check if everyone really went to go to dinner. I sat on my bed again and wrapped my blanket around me. I have been contemplating to call Samira or not. I know we should've called her already to go get lunch, but it just never got to it. After talking to myself for ten minutes I dialed her number. It went over for a few seconds before she picked up.

"Hey, how are you?", she asked. "Hi, I'm... good?", I said. It came out to be more of a question. I tend to do that a lot recently. "Are you okay?", she asked, worry obviously in her voice. "Not really... can we maybe get food and just talk?", I asked hoping she would say yes. "Uhm, yeah. I'm just getting of work, so... where do you live?", she asked. I gave her the address and she told me she would be here in twenty minutes. After she hung up I made myself somewhat representable. I just put on some boyfriend jeans and a big hoodie, that was Jaden's. I did my hair and just left my face without any make-up. I grabbed my stuff and walked downstairs. As I walked into the kitchen someone stood there. It was Jaden. "What are you doing here?", I asked walking up to him. "I didn't wanted you to be alone", he said. I gave him a smile and pulled him in for a hug. "Why did you change?", he asked walking to the fridge. "I'm getting food with Samira", I said hopping onto the counter, "do you want to come?" "No it's fine", he said closing the fridge and walking towards me. "No, you stayed home for me. I don't want you to be alone", I said as he stood in between my legs. He leaned onto the counter and shook his head. "Ali, it's fine. And you and Sam probably want to be alone", he said looking away from me. "Jay, she loves you. She wouldn't mind", I said wrapping my arms around his neck. He looked up and looked at me.

"Okay", he said putting his hands around my waist. I gave him a little smile and stared at his face. I just observed his face, while he was looking at me right into my eyes. "Are you gonna ask her?, he asked moving a strand of my hair behind my ear. "Ask her what?", I asked finally looking him in the eyes. "The truth", he said putting his hand back. I shrugged looking down. He lifted my face and pecked my lips. It took me by surprise, but I didn't mind. "Where was that for?", I asked chuckling and blushing a bit. "Just because", he said shrugging. I smiled at him and played with the rings on his fingers. "How is your hand?", he asked looking at it. "Fine, it hurts tho", I said looking at my wrapped up hand. "What did you think? That the mirror was gonna hug you?", he asked quite serious. "Yeah, it always does right?", I asked joking. Jaden lets out a laugh and shook his head. "But on a serious note, why did you do it?", he asked. "It's... I don't know how to explain it", I said looking at him. "Try me", he said. "Okay, so... whenever I get really mad I can lash out. It's like my whole body shuts off, and only my angry side is there. When I hit the mirror I didn't feel anything and after it too. Just when the glass hit the floor, it hit me. It only happened once before tho", I said shrugging it off at the end. "Was that why Addison knew what to do?", he asked. I nodded and my phone started to ring.

"I'm at the gate", Samira said thru the phone. "Okay, I just need to get my stuff... oh do you mind if Jaden comes along?", I asked hopping off the counter. "No problem, I haven't seen him for so long", she said excited. "We'll be out in two minutes", I said. I hung up and we went out. We locked up the house and went out of the gate. I sat in the front and Jaden in the back. We greeted Samira and drove off. She asked me about my hand and I explained a little bit about it. I didn't tell her about the fight that went on between me and Anthony. After driving for twenty minutes we got to In-N-Out. We ordered our food and sat down. We caught up on the stuff we had been doing. We talked about whatever. It was nice to talk to her again. I felt like we hadn't seen her for ten years. After talking, laughing and eating for almost two hours straight, we went home. She brought us home and we said our goodbye's. Everyone else was already home and for a quick second I forgot about the events that went down today.

I went in hearing a lot of noise coming from the movie room. I stopped walking and Jaden jointed my side. "Just say hi. They're worried about you", Jaden said putting his hand on my lower back. I looked up at him and nodded my head. We walked to the movie room and the room went silent when we came in. Noah paused the movie and Bryce stood up. "I don't care if you don't want it, but I'm gonna hug you", he said walking over to me pulling me close. I chuckled and hugged him back. Soon after him everyone came to greet me, except Anthony and Avani. "How was dinner?", I asked sitting next to Blake. "It was good, I missed you tho", he said pouting. I chuckled and pouted back at him. We talked for a little bit before Jaden asked me if I wanted to go to bed. I really wanted to, so we said goodnight and left the room.

We both changed in some easy clothes and I walked to Jaden's room. And easy clothes, meaning: me in shorts and a hoodie and Jaden with sweatpants and no shirt. I plopped on his bed and laid down already. Jaden laughed at my actions and went under the sheets too. I laid on his chest as he wrapped one of his arms around my waist. It went silent for a second, but I knew what was coming. "I didn't ask her", I whispered with my eyes closed. Jaden stroked my hair not saying anything. "I'm scared of...", I started trying to find my words. "The truth?", Jaden asked. I looked up at him, but he was already looking at me. I nodded slowly and laid back down. "I know", he said, "ask her whenever you are ready. And know I'll always be there by your side if you need me", he said kissing the top of my head. "Thanks Jay", I said snuggling up to him even more. He pulled me closer and within seconds I was out. I know I should ask her, but what if there is a different story again?

A/N

Sorry for the late chapter!
I don't really like this one...

But it's already pretty late for me so, goodnight luvs <33