BREANA'S POV
"Happy birthday to you~ happy birthday to you~ happ---"
"It's not my birthday" walang ganang pagputol ko sa kanta nina kuya habang nakayakap sa mga tuhod.
Nasa labas lang sila nitong malaking incubator na palagi kong tinatambayan. I'm not a baby anymore but I need this to maintain my body.
"Snowy ko--"
"I told you to call me BREANA--and it's been nine years. Hindi pa ba kayo pagod sa pabalik balik dito??" sabay pa silang umiling kaya bumuntong hininga ako at sinandal ang ulo sa salamin.
Nakatingin lang ako sa labas kung saan nakikita ang malawak na city ng russia. What's new? Nothing. What should I do now? Nothing. What I want to do here? Nothing. I missed everything about him, his hugs, kisses, sweet voice. But I don't have any choice.
Sina twins kumakanta na at sina tito ang nagmamanage. Si angela, palipat lipat ng tinutuluyan. Sina kuya naman kase abala sa trabaho at sa buhay nila.
7 years ago kinasal na si kuya lean at ate dana. May kambal silang anak si Belle at Bella. Nagtaka nga ako noon kung bakit nila ako tinanong ng pangalan para sa dalawang babae, yun pala buntis na si ate dana.
"Isang pagkakataon sa isang taon ka lang namin nakakasama eh~ hindi pa natatiming sa birthday natin" tumango lang ako at kinuha ang kumot sa gilid para ipalibot sa akin. Dito na ata ako matutulog buong gabi.
PALAGI akong may suot na jacket pero malamig pa rin tsaka itong panginginig ng mga kamay ko ay hindi lang sa lamig kundi dahil na din sa autoimmune na sakit ko.
Mahigpit ang pagbabantay ni lolo zack sa akin simula nung makaapak ako sa lugar na ito, hindi na din ako nagbalak pang lumabas. Lolo zack is really strict but I know he just want to secure my progress and I need to keep distance from people outside.
Sa totoo nga, napagalitan ako kagabi dahil sinadya kong sirain tong incubator para hindi na ako makalabas. I am just tired and wanna stay here forever!! Wala din naman akong silbi.
"Breana we want to bring you with us to celebrate my wedding again. Gusto ko, ngayon kasama ka na talaga"
"I don't even want to" lumapit pa sila sa malaking salamin. Last session ko na to ngayong araw kaya napagod din ako ng konti dahil buong araw ang gamutan sa akin.
"Handa ka na bang lumabas?" seryoso akong tumingin kay kuya blake na pilit pang ngumiti. I even want to cry!!
"Do I look like ready? No. I'm fine with lolo zack"
"Pumirma na nga kami diba? Pwede ba kami din ang makiusap? Ilang taon kang nagpahinga and we guess that's enough to tell" yumuko ako at naiyak na naman pero hininaan ko lang. Ayokong marinig ni lolo baka magalit yun dahil iisipin na sinisira ko na naman ang sarili.
"We know how secured you are and lolo zack really keep his eyes to you. We are your brothers and we want a return for signing" lalo lang akong naiyak dahil sa mga sinasabi nila. Naalala ko na naman ang usapan namin ni lolo zack.
Hindi naman ako tinuturing na preso ni lolo zack. Actually iniispoil nga niya ako kaso ako lang minsan ang tumatanggi dahil takot ako. Takot ako sa maraming bagay at si lolo zack mabait siya sa akin, hindi niya ako tinuring na iba.
I'm very thankful that he's the one who's helping me. They trained me a lot, they gave me all what I need and I don't think papayag si lolo na makipagsapalaran na naman ako sa labas.
He don't want me to get hurt again and I understand him. Hindi ko ipagkakaila na simula nung pinanganak ako, may problema talaga sa akin--maliban sa pagkamaldita ko.
Halos doctor lahat ang nakapalibot sa gusaling ito, sa lab ni lolo. Idagdag niyo pa ang security na sobrang higpit.
"Umalis na lang kayo kuya"
"We'll talk to lolo first. Dad wants to see you someday with stable life. Maayos na kaming lahat breana, ikaw na lang--"
"Then good for you" humiga na ako dito at tumalikod pa sa kanila. I think, for the second time, they will force me to live in that country!!
BLAKE'S POV
Nagkatinginan muna kami ni kuya lean habang may sinasabi pa si lolo zack. We really want to ACHIEVE something for this year.
"I really love your sister and I treat her like my own child. Please I will let you but take care of her"
"Promise lolo, we are really so against to that agreement which she will give her life and let you experiment her"
"We will not gonna play with her. I can't count how many times she attempted suicide and it's better to find solution for YOUR child too. It's better idea than killing herself for nothing" yumuko lang si kuya kaya napalunok ako. Hindi din namin inakala na pareho ng sitwasyon si bella kay snow. Baka c-c-carrier na si mom noon kahit wala pa si kuya lean.
Sa pagkakaalam ko, naunang ilabas si kuya kesa sa masaklap na ginawa nila kay mommy. Naipasa din kay bella kaya takot din kami.
"Look, remember her leukemia, lupus and spinal tumors she was suffering for 4 years ago, that's the biggest problems we had. I was able to stopped that problem and I can see her body stopped from damaging. Sometimes it attack but some are not too. I'm almost done with the process but she doesn't seems cooperating and don't want to help"
"Lolo, dad just want to see our snow smiling again"
"I know. That's why I'm letting both of you. Maybe her medicine is not just in here. If she really decided on giving her body after few months before her 18th surgery, then let's be it. If don't, then I'm so willing to throw the contract"
"But you still gonna help my daughter, right?"
"Of course I will. I promised to help every person connected to you mother's mother" umayos ako ng upo at tinaas pa ang kamay. Gusto ko na talaga ilabas ang kambal ko dito!
"Lolo, hindi naman sa ayaw--but is it really fine to bring her out?"
"I did all minor and major surgeries--or medications for her. I did my best and I think it's not bad to expose her again in the society. The only problem you have to monitor is that SHE even helping her body to destroy itself"
"What should we do about that?"
"It's all in her mind. Her mental state is her enemy too. Her body can handle a little more pain, at this state, she is so healthy. But let's not be confident, avoid that cause her from bleeding so much. That's the only thing that triggers her body to damage even more"
"She will be okay, right?"
"She will. It's easier to treat her with good mental health. Let her explore more before she decided to lie down with her mother. I told her not to do anything since she really wanted this contract. Give the rest for remaining months she set"
"I-I hope she won't" iniwan na kami ni lolo kaya natahimik kami ni kuya dito at nagisip pa.
Natatakot din ako pero kung tutuloy siya o hindi, gusto pa rin namin siyang ilabas ulit. B-bonding na din sa huling pagkakataon. This might be our last chance.
