Jar of broken hearts

Chapter 31

#JOBH31

One week had past. We stay in hospital because the condition of Lola is getting worse. I had to take care of   her because Andrei and Sammie attending classes.

I took a nap on the couch, it's exhausting but I need to take care of lola. Atleast dito manlang makabawi ako. I rest my nape on the backrest of couch and close my eyes.

Then all memories flashed in my mind like whirlwind. I miss him...

The memory when I left is so fresh. Hindi ko malilimutan kung paano siya lumuhod at nagmakaawang 'wag ko siyang iwan.

Nagising nalang ako sa ingay. Medyo napapapikit pa ako dahil sa liwanag. Pero nung makita ko ang monitor pala na nakakabit kay Lola ang maingay, parang binuhusan ako nang malamig na tubig.

I didn't know what to, if I will call Doctor. Huli na ang lahat... the monitor became straight line. I was about to shout and call the doctor, but its too late.

They tried to revive my lola but...

"I am sorry for the lost. We do our best to save her. Death of time, 10:20 in the morning." the doctor announced.

Iniwan nila ako sa kwarto. Hindi ako makatayo sa kinatatayuan ko. Parang ang bilis lahat ng pangyayari?

Ni hindi ko siya mahawakan, hindi ko siya matignan. I lost Lola. Hindi pa nagsi-sink in sa'kin lahat. Sobrang bilis lahat.

Yung pag-alis ko, yung pag-iwan ko kay Zac, yung pag-iwan sa'min ni lola.

I stared at her bed, she transferred to morgue immediately. When Andrei came with Sammie. My tears fell, I hug them tightly.

Naguguluhan pa si Andrei pero nung humagulgol na ako nang iyak, napapikit siya. Sammie looked so innocent looking at us.

She smiled at me. "Where is lola?" she innocently asked us.

Walang sumagot sakanya. Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit, Andrei join us too.

"Lola... Why did you leave us? We don't know to live without you, please don't leave, 'la..." Bulong ni Andrei. He didn't make sound like me, he silently crying.

Nurse came. Ako na ang kumausap. I want to cremate lola. We don't have enough money. For the last time, we bid our goodbyes to our beloved lola.

Andrei crying hard. Nasa likod lang niya ako at hinihimas ang kanyang braso. Nasa tabi namin si Sammie na nakatingin lang sa kay Lola.

She looked look peaceful. I know that lola leave the world happy. 'God has planned for you, Bianca.' bulong ng utak ko.

"'la, you said that you will fight? Because ate is here, we will figth, right? Why you leave us, 'la? We are not ready to live without you! 'La, wake up! Wake up, Lola! Lola... Please don't leave..." pinigilan ko siyang lumuhod. Sobrang nanghihina ang kanyang mga tuhod. Niyakap ko siya...

"Andrei, hindi tayo iniwan ni Lola. Her presence maybe, yes, but she's guiding us. Lola will never leave us," I said, trying hard to be tough.

"Lola..." Napatingin kami pareho ni Andrei kay sammie. "I know that you are now happy, where in the palace of God. Wait for me, I don't want you to become lonely." Makahulugang aniya. Her words sent shivers down to my spine.

"Sammie?" Si Andrei.

"What? I just want lola happy..."

Pagkatapos no'n, lumabas silang dalawa. Naiwan ako magisa kay Lola. My hands trembling but I manage to hold her cold palms.

"Lola, sobrang gulo na..." I started. "Hindi ko na po alam ang gagawin ko. Pero kailangan kong maging matapang, Lola. Lalo na wala ka na at ako na ang tatayong magulang sa kapatid ko. Alam kong hindi mo ako papabayaan, 'la..." I wiped my tears.