Jar of broken hearts

Chapter 39

WARNING: Matured scenes and effects ahead.

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#JOBH39

Everything was so surreal.

"We never broke our relationship, let say you leave me because your family needs you." He said. When he mentioned my family, I got teary eyed. Yumuko ako.

He played my ring finger. Narinig ko pa ang buntong hininga niya at hinatak ako. Napasubsob ako sa kanyang dibdib. Ang isang kamay niya ay nasa likod ko at hinahagod ito. Isinuksok ko ang mukha ko sa kanyang mapalad na dibdib.

"I know what happened to you, Babe..." He trailed off. Mas lalo akong naiyak. "After you lost your Lola, You lost your sister... I'm sorry, I wasn't there on your hard time..."

Hindi na ako magtataka kung alam niya ang nangyari sa'kin. Sa daming koneksyon nila at ng pamilya nila. Hindi impossible.

My heart tighten when I remember all those nightmares I faced. Sariwa pa ang sakit sa'kin, na kahit anong sabihin ko na tanggap ko na ang mga nangyari dati. Hindi pa din pala.

''Ang sakit sakit, Zac. " Nabasag na nangtuluyan ang boses ko. Pero pinigilan ko ang mga hikbing gustong kumawala.

"Ang sakit sakit, kala ko tapos na. Hindi pa din pala. Dala dala ko na siguro yung sakit na 'to... Dahil tuwing ipipikit ko ang mga mata, ngiti ni Lola at Sammie ang makikita ko.  Na parang totoong totoo sila..''

''Cry on me. This time I will wiped your tears..." Malambing niyang binulong sa'kin.

"Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan... puro pahirap na lang. Gusto ko ng sumuko pero hindi ko din kaya. I'm so fucking tired not just physically but emotionally, Zac.." I said while crying.

I burst all my tears, I had a break down. I need to heal myself. 

Hindi biro lahat ng pinagdaanan ko. Ang traydurin ng sariling nanay... Pero kahit na ganon gusto kong mahanap si Mommy. Ang mawalan halos sabay na mahal sa buhay. Si Lola... Sammie. Ang iwan ang taong alam mong importante sa'yo...

But I am proud to say that all those challenge, I survived it all by myself. I been thru alot... lot. The sleepess nights, crying sessions almost everyday. The anxiety and depression I faced those are worth it.

When my tears stopped, Zac called me. Umalis ako sa pagkakayakap sa dibdib niya. I wiped my tears using my back hands.

"I know you been thru a lot. You suffered a lot, too. The lost, the betrayal you'd faced. But all of those... obstacle, Bianca... you passed it all by yourself. You are now growth— strong woman. You become best version of yourself, I am so proud of you..." he gave me a small smile. Umupo siya, I help him to sit.

He extended his arms and hug me tight. He caressed my small back. Nagsimula na naman maglandas ang luha ko. Itinago ko ang mukha ko sa leeg niya.

''I waited this moment...'' He huskily said. I hears his groaned.  ''8 years are worth to wait.  Because it's you... My love.'' He whispered in my ears. 

''8 years..." I broke our embraced. I looked at him softly. "I'm still into you..."

"I waited to taste that soft lips of yours..." Biglang namula ang pisngi ko. He stared at my lips, I bit it and look away but he held my chin. Namumula na ang mga labi niya sa pagkakakagat. "Again..."

Inilapit niya ang mukha niya at...

Napalunok ako.

"Gising ka na ba, Kuya?"

Traive's annoying voice ecoed. Instead of kissing. Pinagdikit nalang namin ang noo namin at napabuntng hiniga. Nanlalambot ang mga tuhod ko, pero dahil hawak ni Zac ang  magkabilang baywang ko bilang supoorta hindi ako bumagsak.