(This entry was written today September 16, 2020).
As I am writing this, I am crying because I am so stressed. I worked with someone tonight, and they stated that I sucked tonight, saying that I barely did any of the list and that she did most of it. Right now, I'm having a quite hard time balancing work and school. I just always come home so stressed, and I come home tired from work but I have to do homework every night. Since school has started, I haven't had a single night with out homework from any of my classes. For work I just need to improve my working speed, working the register, doing calls, and apparently my voice when I am talking to customers (that is what the girl stated tonight). She is treating me just how that one other girl did. I am trying my hardest. This is my first job ever. I mean, that isn't an excuse, but I just want people to know that I am always trying my hardest, no matter where. At school, at work, or anywhere else. I am trying my hardest. (This even applies to me practicing driving with dad. I just feel like my older sister learned quicker how to drive then I am currently).
I might be stressed more now because I am not getting as much sleep as I normally would because all of these things. I just need to improve on all of them. Get better at driving, do those things for work I listed, and try to raise my Math grade up. It would help if I didn't have anxiety. Good news though, my plant is doing amazing! He has actually grown taller too!
