timothée chalamet imagines

the way that you do

your pov

I stared into the mirror, tears running down my face, studying every imperfection, thinking about everything that I'm not for the most part.

"Y/n?" I heard the bedroom door open.

"I-I'm in the bathroom." I said.

I wet a washcloth with cold water and pressed it to my puffy eyes. I flushed the toilet to make it seem like I had just used it.

Once I composed myself to the best of my ability, I opened the door.

"Hi." Timothée looked down at me.

"Hi." I looked down at my feet.

I pushed myself between him and the doorway, and got into the bed. Immediately covering myself in one of our blankets.

I felt the bed dip next to me.

"I missed you." he said taking the blanket off of my head, unveiling my face.

"I missed you too."

"Why are you crying?" he wiped a tear away.

I hadn't even felt coming down, he had frown on his face now.

"Just over something stupid, don't worry."

"I know it wasn't over something stupid. Talk to me." he said.

There never was a way to get around one of his "talk to me" moments. And there never was a way around being completely honest with him.

"Why did you choose me?" I asked.

"There's too many reasons, I can't just pick one." he shrugged and shook his head.

"You could have anyone else in this world. Anyone far more beautiful, talented, and smarter. Yet- you still chose me."

"And I still chose you," he started playing with my hair, which always calms me down, "there's nobody else I'd rather be with."

"But how come?" I insisted on getting an answer.

He sighed.

"Because you're everything I've ever wanted, and more if that's even possible. You're my other half, like the missing piece of me that I always need to keep. You're gorgeous, intelligent, and talented in your own ways." he said.

Tears flooded my eyes again.

"I don't think you'll ever know how much I love you y/n, and I so badly wish you could." he continued and kissed my cheek while wrapping his arms around me.

"I just want to love myself." my lips quivered.

"You can. I know you can; there's so much to love about you."

"I want to love me the way that you do."

"That won't be possible." he said abruptly.

"Wh-what do you mean?"

"No one can ever love you as much as I do, it's just not possible."

I let out a soft laugh as he returned the same.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too." he kissed the top of my head.

"I know." I smiled.

I'm sorry I haven't been updating lately, I'm extremely busy with school & college applications right now. I promise I will post more the closer we get to Christmas break! <3