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Chapter - 39 Tough cookie

Sidd: Are you sure you want me to leave?

I didn't know what to say. How hard is it to keep a few people in your life? Tears were already falling down my eyes, and I felt miserable. And since I was not replying to his stupid question, he started to leave. He got up from my bed and was about to walk away.

Siddharth's POV: She was obviously super angry at me. Like she didn't even wanna see me. And I respected her decision. As much as I didn't want to do it, I stood up and was about to leave for the door. That's when I felt a tug. I turned back to look at Jaan staring at the floor. But her hand was firmly holding on to me. She pulled me with a force that made me sit back down on the bed. I have no idea what I was thinking, but like I got up once again. And she pulled me back for the second time. And this time, I fell down on the bed with a huge thud. Revenge. I didn't even try to get up this time. I was lying on the bed aimlessly, so I pulled Jaan down on me. For the record though, she didn't relent. I think that's pretty much a win-win. 

Jannat: Where the hell do you think you're going? 

I tilted my head to look down at her tiny figure that was still holding on to me, lying beside me. Her eyes were still wet and she didn't want to look up at me but she didn't let go of my hand either. 

Sidd: You told me to leave-

Jannat: Haan haan, aap toh humesha humari baat sunte hain, haina? Jab sunna tha tab toh suna nahin, ab kya sun raha hai idiot?

Sidd: You're right. I'm sorry. I know it won't be easy for you to forgive me, but atleast try. For me. 

Jannat: I already told you I forgive you

Sidd(smirks): If you had forgiven me, you wouldn't be crying till now 

Jannat: Maybe. But I forgive you. 

And with that, I thought everything would be back to normal. I knew she would have a few scars but I really wanted to make sure that I wouldn't make such a stupid mistake again. I love both of them so much, I don't know what I was thinking. But you know how sometimes, you get blinded? By something or someone. Whatever the deal, I genuinely felt bad. 

Jannat's POV: About two days later, I spun my chair around to face Anushka who was writing something down very cautiously. 

Jannat: Do you think I went a bit soft on him?

Anushka: A bit? If those words mean "a lot" in your dictionary, then imma say yes 

Jannat(groans): I know. I blew it big time. But like I missed him so much, and I was just too happy that he was finally back. At that moment, I didn't think about the fact that he could just leave and make me feel all miserable again.

Anushka: Well, there's one thing you can do. I mean, now that this has already happened, even if he does leave again, you'll be a bit stronger cuz you've already gone through this once. Maybe try not letting him into your personal space again. 

Jannat: It's super tough

Anushka: I know, but when you've had that personal attachment with someone, and they just leave out of the blue, your heart breaks. It's going to be tough yes but you can't just keep letting him in again everytime he does something stupid like this

Jannat: You're right. Besides, its not going to be that tough anyways. I hope. 

Huh. Here I am laughing at my own statement. Tough? It was beyond tough. The more I tried to distance myself from him, the more I missed him and his silly antics. Like I said, he's this one guy whom you can't live without and at the same time, living with him is difficult too. Ugh, why is this guy so complicated? I had to be very subtle in everything I did. I let him have fun with everyone out there without trying to get disturbed. And you know what? I wasn't disturbed. (LIE). I just knew one thing - this would hurt lesser than him walking away from me, and listening to my heart shatter into pieces. I had to do this. I had to toughen up. It wasn't all that hard actually cuz I'm in my classes all the time, so we just meet during lunch. And after the day ends, I stay holed up in my room studying till I go have dinner. So technically, we just meet during lunch and dinner, and sometimes he just shows up to spend some time and hang out. Anushka takes it from there, she makes sure that I don't get stuck in some awkward situation. All the timing and everything was fine, it was what was on the inside that hurt. It killed me not to be beside him. I felt like I got replaced. 

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