it makes no sense but this is what me and my best friend slash crush had to go through because of my insecure ass 😂 so i made it into drarry, enjoy the fic, muggle!au, hurt comfort, angst, fluff
previously called Don't Do This To Yourself
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It was a quiet ride to the beach.
Draco had decided to bring Harry out in order to release some tension from their minds, Harry's especially. He had been facing a lot of backlashes from Draco's so-called friends, family and the public for dating him but the black-haired male kept bottling up his feelings, not wanting to share it with Draco. Three months worth of mental breakdown, stress and depression caused Harry's CGPA to drop below 3.0, which sent him into another set of breakdown.
Parking the car to the parking lot provided near the beach, Draco turned off the engine and Harry got out of the car instantly. The grey-eyed male sighed softly, closing his eyes as he leaned against his seat, not knowing how to talk to Harry without causing any fights between them. Thinking and thinking.
With a deep breath, he got out of the car after he had turned off the engine. He grabbed his wallet and phone as he went and trailed after Harry.
The smaller male looked around and smiled a little. "The beach is always so calming," he said, mind wondering. Draco hummed and stood next to Harry, hands to his pockets. He said, "Don't forget that it can also be chaotic. The sea is unpredictable, boo."
"I know," Harry grinned lopsidedly.
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The younger male sighed as he leaned against the wall tiredly. He had spilt every single thing everyone had said and done to him, bullying him verbally because of his relationship with Draco.
The blond sighed as well, looking at the sky with guilt. "I'm sorry," he whispered. "I'm sorry you had to go through all of that because of me. I don't know how you could still want to be my boyfriend despite it all. I don't deserve you, Harry. I really don't," he added, smiling bitterly.
"There are times where the words would get to me," Harry replied, voice just as soft. "I tried to fight it–"
"No, boo," Draco shook his head. "I think... I think you constantly question my intentions and my closeness to you. You let your dark thoughts consumed you and I'm not sure how I'm going to convince you that I love you, I care about you and I'm not leaving. We're in this together. Forever."
"I'm sorry," Harry apologised sadly. "I know it hurts you that I think so little of you but I can't help myself. I can't help but think that one day you'd realise I'm too much for you to handle and that you'd leave. Sometimes..." he hesitated. "Sometimes I even wait for it to happen."
"Harry," Draco pulled him into a tight hug, rubbing his back up and down. Feeling that the guilt was starting to set in and weighed his heart down, Harry hugged Draco back tighter. "Don't do this to yourself, Harry. Please. Don't hurt yourself by thinking so negatively of me, of us. You're my best friend other than you're my boyfriend, love. I never wanted to hurt you. I did my mistake repeatedly in the past and you still accepted me in. I just wanted you to not doubt my love for you, Harry. Don't doubt me."
"I'm really sorry, Draco!" the other male burst into tears, body trembling with every breath he took. "Oh, boo," Draco swayed them from side to side, trying his best to comfort the love of his life.
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"Honestly, Harry," Hermione looked at him with a deadpanned look. "You were having a bad mood, which is a valid emotion to have and you snapped at Draco by accident. You apologised to him in text and he just read the text but didn't reply. Have you ever thought that he might need some time to collect himself before he came and talk to you? Or the fact that he just might be busy?"
The green-eyed male shrugged weakly. "I'm just... I just thought that I had screwed up the relationship, 'Mione."
"Harry, listen. Do you really think that Draco would throw away your relationship just because you snapped at him by accident? After all the things you two had been through together and with each other? You really think that?"
Harry just shrugged again. "Anything could happen... I mean, it's not like it's an impossible thing."
Hermione facepalmed with a sigh. "You're much more of an idiot than I initially thought you were then."
"Hey!"
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Draco rolled his eyes while shaking his head fondly. "She's 100% correct. You are. A complete dumbarse."
Harry puffed his cheeks and turned around to sulk, making the taller male laughed and pulled him back, embracing him a firm sweet hug. "You are though. Don't even try to deny it."
"Fine, I am. I thought we had already established that when we first started being friends?" Harry huffed.
Draco pecked his cheek. "That we did."
"By the way, have you watched that movie where there's like–"
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guys, gimme some movie suggestion please, i need to educate myself before i lose more brain cells because of the stupid pandemic
btw they're all real conversations, no joke but we're just friends 😂
