someone gave me this idea and i thought why not do it? thank you loserwholoves5sosbxb for the idea!
angst, hurt comfort, depression, ptsd, trauma, unhealthy alcohol consumption, heavy smoking, self-harming, slow burn, fluff, angst with a happy ending, mentions of cheating etc etc
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On one morning, Harry was cooking in the kitchen, preparing some food for him and his fiancé, who was still sleeping on their bed, dead to the world when a song suddenly came out of the wireless, making him faltered as he listened to the lyrics of the song.
You've got a million reasons to hesitate
But darlin', the future's better than yesterday
I wasted so much time on people that reminded me of you
Gave you a million reasons to walk away
The green-eyed male still remembered the struggles Draco had to go through because of him before they even get to where they were now. He remembered how toxic their relationship was back in Hogwarts after the war. With all the PTSD and the trauma, Harry had resulted in having lots of sleeping around with literally anyone who wanted to sleep with him, no strings attached.
Including Draco.
They fucked, they fought, they hurt each other. It's always on repeat.
But I'll build a house out of the mess
And all the broken pieces
I'll make up for all of your tears
Harry regretted all the tears he had caused Draco to shed. When they were in a relationship, Harry had done the stupidest thing ever.
He cheated on Draco with Ginny, who had just broken up with her boyfriend, Dean before she got her shit together and invested herself with Luna.
I'll give you the best years
I'll give you the best years
Past love burned out like a cigarette
I promise, darling, you won't regret
The best years
Draco had screamed at him, straight out sobbing when Harry admitted what he did and broken up with him right there and then. The worst thing was that everyone sided with him over Harry, which was considerably understandable even though it still hurts.
Harry was emotionally destroyed. His nightmares increased its appearance and he resorted to self-harming.
The painful part was watching Draco destroy himself because of the shittiest thing he had done. The grey-eyed male was healing, starting to get better from his trauma from the war but Harry ruined it. He ruined him.
I wanna hold your hair when you drink too much
Carry you home when you cannot stand up
You did all these things for me when I was half a man for you
I wanna hold your hand while we're growing up
Draco became an alcoholic and a heavy smoker. By then, Harry's body parts were littered with deep knife scars. He let himself drowned by the lake. When he was being pushed out of the water, he was aware of screaming and crying but he couldn't remember anything but the horrified look on Draco's face before Ron and Hermione's face hovered above his.
But I'll build a house out of the mess
And all the broken pieces
I'll make up for all of your tears
It took him years of seeing the Mind Healer to get back on track with his life. Harry decided he should let Draco go and he confronted the male as so. He told him everything, bearing every secret he kept within him. His last words to him were, "I did love you, Malfoy. No, I do love you. With all my heart, no one ever made me feel the way you do. You made me feel important. You made me feel as if I mattered. Not Harry Potter, the Saviour of the Wizarding World. But Harry Potter, the boy who lost himself."
