Surrendering Dreams (Amor Series#1)

Kabanata 53

R-18

I've been living in the apartment of Kairos for quite some time now. We're splitting the rent and bill into half. I wouldn't agree if he wouldn't let me pay for it. It is located near BGC that's why it's freaking expensive. I wouldn't let him pay for everything, nagtatrabaho rin naman ako. Dito rin kasi siya nagtatrabaho kaya naman ay malapit lang ang apartment na kinuha niya.

Hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. Anong karapatan ko namang magreklamo kung nakiki-tira lang naman ako. Malapit lang din naman 'to sa school. Kaunting sakay lang. Pwede ngang lakarin para makatipid ngunit baka sobrang haggard ko na pagdating sa school. Ayoko rin naman bumalik sa condo sa Makati, nandoon din si Greyson.

"Umiinom ka na naman." Wika niya. I looked at him and his face showed disapproval. What can I do? I just want to relax because I still can't decide whether or not I should go tomorrow.

Inirapan ko lang siya. Bumuga rin ako ng hangin. I sighed deeply.

"Hiyang hiya naman ako sa'yo." I said. He was worse than me before I came here. He's always drunk, except during his duty.

He stopped drinking when I came here. Maybe to welcome me with open arms or just to look after me. Besides, he's the only family I have right now. Alam niya siguro na kailangan ko ng magbabantay sa akin.

"Kung nagmumukmok ka rin, bakit hindi mo pa balikan?" Tanong niya. He was just looking at me boredly. I looked at him darkly because of what he suggested. Do you think it was that easy?

Hindi na ako sumagot at sumandal lang ako sa kanya. I'm actually exhausted.

"Miss na miss ko na nga siya. Sa tingin mo dapat akong pumunta sa graduation niya bukas?" I asked quietly. I don't even know if he heard what I said. He caressed my hair before answering.

"Pumunta ka, isang beses lang ga-graduate 'yung tao." Wika niya pa at tumango lang ako. Maybe he's right, I should come. I shouldn't ruin his day, because it's his day.

"Grabe, ilang buwan ng tuyo kiki ko. Kawawa naman, hindi nadidiligan." I said randomly. I was just joking because I knew he'd show a violent reaction.

"Kadiri, Tanniña." He said before pushing me. Muntik na akong masubsob kung hindi lang niya ako hinila pabalik. Aba, gago 'to ah.

"Miss na niya si Greyson." Biro ko pa. Ngumiwi siya at umalis. Natawa lang ako sa tinuran niya. I shook my head before finally deciding if I would attend the ceremony tomorrow or not.

Kinabukasan ay dali dali akong nag ayos. I woke up earlier than my usual time. I shouldn't look ugly. Baka agad akong mapalitan, mahirap na. Marami pa namang umaaligid na oportunista sa tabi-tabi.

Kinakabahan ako habang nakatingin sa salamin na nasa harap ko. Mukha bang OA 'tong ayos ko? Or maybe it's too simple? Too daring or too lame?

"Okay ba itsura ko?" Tanong ko kay Kairos. I was panicking internally because I wasn't even prepared to face him. Should I not attend?