Surrendering Dreams (Amor Series#1)

Kabanata 32

Nagising ako sa isang pamilyar na kwarto. Nilibot ko ang tingin at nakita ang tulog na si Greyson sa aking tabi. Malamang ay hindi na ako nagising kagabi noong nakatulog ako sa kotse niya.

I gently touched his hair. I admit, I miss him so much. I miss his presence, his sweetness, his hugs and kisses.

I stood up and wrote a letter on a sticky note and I placed it on top of his side table.

'Thanks for letting me stay. Sorry sa abala.'

After writing a note, I went outside of his unit and stayed in my condo. I would want to ask him for breakfast but things might get awkward.

Dahil maaga pa naman ay nag aral muna ako sa Consti. Medyo marami-rami rin ang aaralin dito. Law school isn't just about memorizing. Recit requires you to memorize the law to apply it to the certain condition or situation.

Nang matapos ay nagpunta muna akong gym at nakita kong nandoon si Greyson sa may mga weights, kaya lumapit ako para magpasalamat.

"Uy salamat nga pala at sorry sa abala. Gusto mo ng breakfast?" Tanong ko pa bilang pangbayad sa kahihiyan at abalang dulot ko kagabi. I can't even remember how I got there, maybe he carried me.

I looked at him and I see no reaction on his face. He's just wearing a straight face while looking at me directly as if he's looking at my soul.

I was waiting for him to talk but I guess things don't usually go the way you expect it to.

"Tanya, let's just forget everything that happened between us. I want to move on and start with Carly and you're already with Paul, Oliver or whoever. I just want to stop caring and end things between us totally." Sambit niya at umalis na.

I didn't expect to hear it. I mean, I just can't believe he said that. For all I know, he's the gentleman and the kindest human being I've known.

Nagulat ako dahil mukhang galit siya. Wala naman akong natatandaan na ginawa kong kasalanan. Hindi pa ba siya nakakamove on sa lagay na 'yan? Grabe ang landian nila ni Carly.

Pagkatapos kong magwork out ay bumalik na ako sa condo para makaligo na dahil baka malate ako.

I kept thinking about what he said to me. Am I just easy to forget or he just had enough of me and my shit?

Medyo distracted pa rin ako sa sinabi ni Greyson. I just felt a bit of pain just by thinking of forgetting about our memories together. I treasured it and those were the memories I wouldn't want to forget because I felt alive.

Nagsindi ako ng Marlboro bago pumasok sa school para kumalma ako dahil baka hanggang sa exam ay maging distracted ako. I stopped smoking because Greyson hated it and Kairos too. It's bad for the health. But I smoke occasionally like when I'm really stressed out, about twice a month or less.