Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 36 - professional

— your pov —

When I walk inside the medical Station to check on Steve, I see him sitting there all on his own, without a Shirt on. Because of that sight I had to take a breath to remind me that I have to act professional.

-Y/n: "Are you alright?", I walk towards him.
-Steve: "It's just a small Scratch, It'll heal all by itself."
-Y/n: "Can I take a look?", he nods and I lean over to see his wound, "It's better if you bandage it, don't risk it, it could get infected.", I stand up to get a band aid.
-Steve: "Why do you know so much about This?", he follows me with his eyes.
-Y/n: "I didn't have a nice childhood and I had to take care about Ares.", I disinfect his wound.
-Steve: "I'm sorry about your loss."
-Y/n: "You know how they say that the youngest child is always the chaotic one? I think it was always different in our family.", I start to put the band aid on his wound.
-Steve: "You don't have to answer, but was it easy for you to, you know, kill them?", i looked up at him and back down.
-Y/n: "It never is, it never should be. I've learned to ignore my feelings.", I was done and look him in the eyes.
-Steve: "You shouldn't do this."
-Y/n: "If I would stop, I would probably break down."
-Steve: "I would be there for you.", he put his hand on my cheek.
-Y/n: "I should go."
-Steve: "Yes, i have to speak to Tony.", he pulled his hand away and I walked to Loki.

-Y/n: "How are you feeling?", I ask as soon as I enter his room. I look at him and see how he just pulled away from a kiss with that nurse.
-Nurse: "I should go.", she quickly left.
-Loki: "A little better."
-Y/n: "I thought you couldn't stand Midgardians.", i have a strange feeling in my heart but I ignore it.
-Loki: "What's against a little bit of fun?"
-Y/n: "Well, you shouldn't manipulate her, everything else is just fine.", it's obvious that he manipulates her because she was afraid of him the whole time.
-Loki: "How was your mission?"

I told him what happened and we talked for a bit more. When I asked him if I should change his bandage, he said that the nurse will do it. I leave after some time. Should I help her? No. I'm one of the avengers but I still want to have some fun. I walk inside my room and take a shower.

After I showered I felt like wearing one of my lingeries. I wore the black one and because of the fact that I know now that Loki doesn't feel anything for me, what would've been strange, I thought about paying the captain a visit. I'm wearing my ugly sweatpants and a hoodie and make my way to his room. Before I knock I had to breath one last time and then I did it.

-Steve: "Hey. Why am I honoured with a visit of yours?", he said after he opened the door and smiled.
-Y/n: "You said earlier that you would be there for me.", I looked him deeply in the eyes.

He abruptly starts kissing me and pulls me inside. While he did that he closed the door. Steve throws me onto the bed and starts to undress himself. When he just wears his boxers he comes down to me and starts kissing me on the mouth. Then he starts to undress me.

-Steve: "Wow.", he said as he saw my lingerie.
-Y/n: "Come back.", I told him.

He leaned down again and starts kissing my body, while I still wear the lingerie.

-Y/n: "Don't think that I'm gonna wear this while we fuck.", i said.

Steve just smiled and also starts to undress me from my lingerie. Now I'm laying in front of him completely naked and he put his boxers off. He stuck it inside of me and started to move. He quietly moans into my ear and so do I. It's not as exiting as with Loki. I immediately shake that thought away from my mind and try to enjoy what is happening right now.

After some time we changed positions and I was riding him. Steves Hands Are on my waist and he leads me a little bit how to move my hips. He then began to moan louder as usual.

-Steve: "I'm about to cum."

I remember that he doesn't have a condom on and quickly jump off of him. Steve rubs it quickly, moaned even louder for one time and came all over me.

-Steve: "Wow, if you ever need me to be there for you again, you know where to find me.", he said and lays beside me on the bed.
-Y/n: "I'm gonna clean myself up."

I went into his bathroom and cleaned up the mess he did. After that I got out of the bathroom just to find him already asleep. I put on my clothes and leave his room. On the way to my room I see Natasha.

-Natasha: "Where were you today?", I hoped that she would just go her way without talking to me.
-Y/n: "Outside. I was having a walk."
-Natasha: "You can't lie to me, Y/n. Who is the lucky man? Steve or Loki?"
-Y/n: "Why would you think that it would've been one of them if you were right?"
-Natasha: "The way both of them look at you."
-Y/n: "And what makes you think that I want anything from them?"
-Natasha: "The way you care about them, both of them.", she smiled at me and I rolled my eyes.
-Y/n: "Natasha, I don't want to have this kind of conversation right now. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep.", I really hope she lets me go.
-Natasha: "Alright, good night."
-Y/n: "Night."

I reach my room and change my clothes to my pyjama. After that I lay down in my bed. Do I have feelings for them? And if I do, do I prefer Steve or Loki? This thought almost didn't let me go to sleep, but after some time I managed to fall asleep, dreaming of both of them.

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