Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 41 - soul

-- your POV --

They all left the room when they made the man with the short, blonde hair in a black suit leave. I'm alone again. What could I have done to upset them so much? The door opens again and I am ready to answer every question with 'I don't know'. As I look down I see the handsome man with the long, black hair, gorgeous blue eyes and the black suit with the green cape again. He stands just as before right in front of the glass of the cell and looks at me. I try to stand up and walk towards him because I already forgot that I have a hobble around my ankles but I couldn't move a bit.

-???: "Don't try that, you will hurt yourself.", he said, "Can you tell me who you are?"

His eyes want to look into my soul but do I still have one? I don't know who I am, where I am from and what I did to upset them so much. Does it feel like this when you have no soul? Lost and alone?

-Y/n: "I don't know.", I told him after a while.
-???: "What is the last thing you can remember?"
-Y/n: "Waking up in here."

He looks down, processing that I don't know anything. I feel guilty to not know him, because I feel comfortable when he's around and I think that there was something between us. His eyes tell me that. He looks at me as if he lost someone who he liked and maybe more than he wanted to.

-Y/n: "What is your name?", I felt confident enough to ask him that.
-???: "Loki.", he answered really fast.
-Y/n: "And do you have a surname?"
-Loki: "Laufeyson."
-Y/n: "It's weird, I feel like you're not from here."
-Loki: "I'm not."
-Y/n: "Then tell me, where are you from Loki Laufeyson?"
-Loki: "Asgard."
-Y/n: "Asgard? What is this supposed to be? A village?"
-Loki: "A realm, the most powerful one."
-Y/n: "Okay, now tell me the truth.", I'm not believing him. A realm named Asgard? He maybe can fool someone else with that but not me.
-???: "Loki that's enough!", another tall guy with also short, blonde hair but with an eyepatch came inside.
-???: "You can't just tell her such things."
-Loki: "She deserves the truth, brother."
-Y/n: "Brother? You two don't even look alike."
-???: "See What you just did again?"
-Loki: "She doesn't know anyone, not even herself."
-???: "You know exactly that this could just be one of her tricks again and the next thing that happens is that another army is standing outside and attacking us."
-Y/n: "I had an army?", maybe they kidnapped me.
-Loki: "See Thor, she doesn't even know what happened before she woke up in there.", So his brothers name is Thor, good to know.
-Thor: "As the god of mischief I don't expect you to believe her that easily. What is wrong with you?"
-Loki: "You're probably right, we should leave and let Stark do whatever he wants to do."

Loki looks at me once more and then turns around and leaves with Thor. God of mischief? That isn't true, they are clearly making up a story that I should believe but I'm not stupid to do what they want me to do. I'm going to play along. I tell myself. I have to. In the Next second the man I saw when I woke up came back inside, grabbed a chair, placed it in front of the glass and sat down, meanwhile looking at me.

-???: "I really hope that this isn't another trick of yours."
-Y/n: "You can never know."
-???: "Your personality, however, is still here and that gives me hope to get your memories back."
-Y/n: "What makes you think that I want them back?"
-???: "I don't think that but we will do it, even if you don't want."
-Y/n: "Why?", I'm asking while leaning forwards and with a stare right into his soul.
-???: "We need answers from you."
-Y/n: "You won't get them.", I'm leaning back, smiling and looking up to the ceiling.
-???: "Yes we will, because you trusted us."
-Y/n: "Maybe I could give you some answers already but I have no idea who you are.", I'm looking back at him.
-???: "Don't worry about it, you don't even know who you are."
-Y/n: "You would make everything much easier if you would just tell me everything and maybe I'll agree to take my memories back."
-???: "No, you would just not want them even more."
-Y/n: "It's not your decision to do whatever you want with my memories, they belong to me and I have a right to know them.", I'm getting a little bit angry at this point.
-???: "You will know soon enough."

He stands up and puts the chair back from where he got it. Then he stands in front of my cell to look at me and I just roll with my eyes.

-Y/n: "Tell the Laufeyson brothers to not bother me anymore.", I said as he walked away.

He looked at me with a questioning expression but kept walking. If this is going to continue that someone walks inside, talks with me for about 5 minutes and then leaves again, I'll kill myself. I really want answers to my questions that are in my head but I can't have my memories back. What if I knew something really important and I'll just tell them? I can't let that happen.

-Loki: "Are you hungry?", he walks inside with a plate full of food.
-Y/n: "I thought I told this man that I don't want to be bothered by you and your brother anymore."
-Loki: "I don't follow rules."

He opens the door and walks straight to me. He is lucky that I almost can't move. Loki puts the plate next to me while looking deeply into my eyes. I guess that's his thing. Then he turns around, locks the door and stands in front of the cell again.