Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 20 - drunk

⚠️ TW ; s*x scenes ⚠️

— your POV —

-Loki: "How can you drink this like it's water?", he said after taking the shot and while he was making a grimace.
-Y/n: "I've been tortured, this is like water to me.", I joked.
-Loki: "You should really stop making joke about it.", he said smiling.
-Y/n: "Wait. Have you ever been drunk in your life?"
-Loki: "Not really, no."
-Y/n: "Alright, let's change that."

I ordered another 2 shots from the bartender and we drunk it. Loki made another grimace and I had to laugh.

— 3rd person view —

-Steve: "We should stop them and tell them to go to bed.", he said to Tony, Thor and Natasha.
-Natasha: "Let them have fun, old man."
-Thor: "I've never seen my brother like this before."
-Natasha: "Drunk or happy?"
-Thor: "Both.", he said with a smile on his face, happy for his brother.
-Tony: "Are they going to dance?", he asked shockingly.
-Thor: "This is going to be hilarious. Tony record this.", he said laughing.

They watch Y/n and Loki dancing on the dance floor, singing and laughing. Then a slow song starts playing and they start dancing sexual.

-Steve: "We should stop them, now."
-Tony: "Jep."

Everyone agreed. When they reached the dance floor Y/n and Loki weren't there anymore. That's why they started to look for them at the bar, but they weren't there neither.

-Thor: "They probably went to bed."
-Tony: "Yes or they are doing other things.", he said while they are going back to the couch.
-Thor: "What things?"
-Natasha: "Oh my god, Thor I wouldn't have asked that.", she laughed.

— your POV —

Loki is pressing me against the wall in his dorm, while our lips are touching and our tongues are dancing with each other. He is holding my arms above my head. He slowly kisses down to my neck and when he starts sucking on it I had to moan out loud.

-Loki: "Is it you who wants me or just the alcohol?", he asked under his breath, still continuing so Kiss and suck my neck.
-Y/n: "Is that important right now?"

He stops for a second, looks me in the eyes and then presses his lips against mine again. While he kissed me, I started to undress him, which was kinda difficult. I failed miserably and when he noticed it he stopped to kiss me and laughed. He takes one step back and undresses himself. When he wears nothing more than his underwear he finally comes back to me who hasn't moved at all. Loki then started to undress me too, but I suddenly feel very uncomfortable and I start to panic a little bit.

-Y/n: "We shouldn't be doing this.", I pulled my top back up.
-Loki: "What?", he asked, not quite understanding what I just said.
-Y/n: "I'm sorry.", I whisper before I leave his dorm.

While I ran out of the building i crash into someone. It's Steve.

-Steve: "Is everything alright?", he asked worryingly.
-Y/n: "Yes. Yes. I just need some fresh air.", I wanted to go but he hold me back.
-Steve: "Did Loki hurt you?"
-Y/n: "What? How do you think I was with Loki? God no! I need to get out of here for a second.", I tried to hide what just happened.
-Steve: "Okay. If you want to talk you know where to find me.", he smiled a bit and then walked away.

I then made my way to the roof. I sat down so that my legs were in the air. The fresh wind is blowing through my hair and it's a bit cold. I remember sitting here the night when I was kidnapped. It was the first time I felt something for Loki.

-Loki: "I knew you would come here.", he sits beside me.
-Y/n: "I'm honoured with the presents of one of your many illusions again."
-Loki: "I'm sorry that I have to disappoint you but this time it isn't an illusion."

I don't look at him, I actually try to avoid him. It's embarrassing what happened earlier and also this silence between the two of us right now.

-Loki: "Can I ask why you ran away?"
-Y/n: "I wasn't feeling good."
-Loki: "I don't believe it.", I looked at him directly in his blue eyes.
-Y/n: "It follows me.", I break the staring between us.
-Loki: "What follows you?"
-Y/n: "My memories of the kidnapping."
-Loki: "I've heard that talking about it should help."
-Y/n: "Is it true?"
-Loki: "I don't know. I just heard it.", he made me smile for a second.
-Y/n: "How should I trust you? Or anybody else?"
-Loki: "You can't."
-Y/n: "Exactly."
-Loki: "But you could just kill me without any effort.", he's right.
-Y/n: "They somehow controlled me, or my powers. They made me use them against myself whenever I used my powers."
-Loki: "What did you do to yourself?"
-Y/n: "I through lived my biggest fear again and again and again.", I looked at the dark sky.
-Loki: "That man is your biggest fear?", he sounds surprised.
-Y/n: "That man was my father.", I looked back in his eyes. They showed me that he was worried.
-Loki: "But you killed him. It's over."
-Y/n: "Not when your own father abused you, tortured you. And whenever you close your eyes you see him in front of you.", a tear rolled down my cheek, but I quickly wiped it away.
-Loki: "Why didn't you say h- how bad it was?", he lays his hand carefully on my shoulder.
-Y/n: "It's not important."
-Loki: "It is."
-Y/n: "It could be worse."

I stand up and leave Loki sitting there, probably processing everything I just told him. When I reached my dorm, I changed clothes and laid on the bed, but I didn't dare to sleep. Every time I close my eyes I see my father, memories that I thought I had forgotten already. While I lay there I think about if it was the right choice to tell Loki, the god of mischief and lies, about my biggest fear and my father.