Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 52 - dangerous

— your POV —

After he laid down on the bed, not saying a word since before, I sit on top of him and start to kiss his neck. I'm more a bottom than a top but I want to make him feel comfortable in some kind of way. I kiss down to his chest and keep going. He still hasn't said a word and it looks like he's fighting with himself if he should do this or not.

I slowly glide down between his legs that weren't on the bed and kiss his thighs. Then he suddenly sits up and stops me by laying his hands on my shoulders and pressing me a bit away. I look up in his now red eyes, waiting for any other reaction. He looks deep into my eyes, probably still fighting with himself.

-Loki: "...I can't.", he slowly speaks with a little raps in his voice.
-Y/n: "We'll be careful.", I almost whisper.
-Loki: "I'll hurt you.", he repeats, almost whispering too.

I put my hands on his cheeks and start to kiss him, while still kneeing between his legs. He definitely was surprised but after a while he started to kiss me back, with his hands wandering down to my lower back. I know he wants this, but he's so afraid of hurting me. It's funny that this guy killed 80 people in 2 days, it's almost unbelievable.

-Loki: "You're midgardian now, don't forget that.", he says while we had to break the kiss for air.
-Y/n: "I would've already frozen to death if I was fully midgardian."
-Loki: "It's still very dangerous.", he hesitated to say.
-Y/n: "I like when it's dangerous."

— Loki's POV —

Totally overwhelmed by her, I couldn't say anything anymore and let her do whatever she wants to and lean back on the bed. She slowly began to run her hands along my shaft, relaxing my mind a little bit more by her touch. I can't believe I'm doing this. I suddenly feel her mouth around my tip and because I wasn't ready for it I let out a silent moan. She starts to move her head up and down in a very nice rhythm. She is stroking the rest of me, that doesn't fit inside her mouth, with her hands.

I sit up straight to take her hair into my one hand and to lead her a little bit more. My other hand is behind me to help me lean  forward. Then I felt her back of her throat on my tip and let out another moan. God, she's driving me crazy. To my surprise she didn't gag or anything else, she just keeps moving her head up and down normally again.

Then she did it again. Another moan escaped my mouth and I can feel how my high is building up more and more. She's making me cum in record time. I can't contain myself anymore and stand up. Her eyebrows furrow by my action, but I didn't care and grab her by her waist and throw her carefully on the bed. She laughs a little bit until I come down to her and kiss her passionately.

My hand is running down the outside of her thigh, which makes her shift under me. I love how much she craves for me. Just the simplest touch of me is too much for her to take. But I can't resist much longer either. While we're still kissing and silent whimpers escape her lips, I let my hand slide between her thighs and separate them, so that I am between them. Then I let my hand check how wet she is, but I guess she is already soaking. At this moment I'm glad that we're both naked from "showering" earlier, it would just be annoying to get out of our clothes right now.

-Y/n: "Loki, please.", she whimpers under me and begs that I push inside of her, but before I continue I let myself think about this one last time. I could seriously hurt her, or worse I could kill her. I'm not quite sure if she really knows that. I feel her hands on my cheeks, which throw me out of my thoughts. How long have I been thinking about this?

-Y/n: "I trust you. You won't hurt me.", her finger go along the ridges on my face which makes me uncomfortable. I want her, but not like this, I can't relax.

-Loki: "...I can't.", I give in and lay beside her. Ashamed I turn my skin normal again. I don't allow myself to look at her right now, I just pinch my eyes together, mad at myself. Then I feel her hand on my cheek again.

-Y/n: "It's alright, I'm not mad at you. If you're not ready for this, then we'll maybe do it another time, I don't want to push you, just know that I am ready for it.", I open my eyes and look in hers. I get so lost in them and feel very comfortable. She puts a smile on her face and shortly afterwards she stand up from the bed, "I'll go and take that shower now." and with that sentence she disappeared in the bathroom again.

I'm still laying on the bed, regretting to even show her my other self. How could she even look at me like that? I've always hidden that part of me from everyone because I am so disgusted and ashamed by it. It just tells the story of how my father thought of me as someone who could maybe assure peace between the frost giants and the Asgardians, which never worked because I'm a failure.

But she didn't look at me like that. She look my head in her hands and kissed me. She made me feel good about a part in me that I thought never could feel even just a little bit good. But the thought of hurting her with that part scares me. I would never admit that, but it really does. I couldn't look at myself anymore, I would fall apart. I try to shake all of what just happened to the side of my head and concentrate on her. I promised she could have a relaxed day, without the others that'll just ruin it and if I'm in a bad mood, that would affect her. She said it herself, she is not mad and she accepts it.

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