Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 54 - happy

-- Your POV --

-Y/n: "Are you hungry?", I ask Loki as we entered his room and started to took off our jackets.
-Loki: "Didn't you just eat about 8 chocolate strawberries?", he asked another question instead of answering mine.
-Y/n: "I did, but that's not really something to saturate someone, especially not me." I added the last part of the sentence with a little smile on my lips.
-Loki: "I could eat something too, but let me change my clothes first."

I smiled and nodded. I really appreciate that Loki went against all his rules and wore "normal" clothes for one day to make me happy. I mean everything he did for me today was amazing and I already forgot what happened in the morning between us. I respect that he doesn't want to sleep with me when he's in his jotun form, that just makes me think that he want's to protect me and that's kinda cute to be honest.

-Y/n: "I'll already go, take your time.", I said while already leaving his room.

The talking stopped as soon as I entered the kitchen. Natasha, Tony, Steve and Pepper are sitting at the table, laughing. Well, at least they laughed before I entered. I didn't say anything, I just walked straight to the fridge to find something to eat. An awkward silence is flooding the room and I just feel so unwanted here at the moment. No, I genuinely think that I'm unwanted in this whole fucking house.

-Steve: "Where were you today?", he suddenly asked but I know he just does that to be kind in any way possible, which kinda sucks.
-Y/n: "Walking around the town.", I answer dryly, not wanting to proceed this conversation.
-Natasha: "The whole day?"
-Y/n: "Yes.", i usually would tell them that I've never been to a city in general but I'm just not in the mood.
-Natasha: "You were with Loki?", I roll my eyes.
-Y/n: "None of your business."
-Tony: "So he was.", he says that so disappointed that it almost hurts.
-Y/n: "Do you have a problem with that?", I ask, can't pretend to be nice anymore.
-Tony: "I told you that he has wrapped you around his finger.", I let out a loud sigh.
-Y/n: "What if he makes me happy? Ever thought of that?", I close the fridge after getting just a yoghurt because I'm not very hungry anymore.
-Tony: "He shouldn't."
-Y/n: "What do you want to say with that? That I don't deserve to be happy?", I've not once looked at any of them, secretly hoping that Loki would show up soon to get me out of here.
-Tony: "No, you deserve to be happy, but not with him."
-Y/n: "Alright.", i sigh and turn around to look at him, "What is your fucking problem with me being with Loki?"
-Natasha: "You two are dating?"
-Y/n: "No, what the hell Natasha."
-Natasha: "Just wanted to make sure.", she shrugs and looks back at Steve, lifting one of her eyebrows, probably thinking that I wouldn't notice it.
-Tony: "He isn't good for you.", he continued the conversation.
-Y/n: "Oh and you know exactly what's good for me?", I let out a laughter, "You have no idea who I am."
-Tony: "And you have no idea who he is and what he has done.", his voice raises.
-Y/n: "I had to study him, I know almost everything about him.", I try to stay calm.
-Tony: "Not anymore."

He says more silent again and in a very serious tone. It does worry me a little bit. What do I not know that he has done? There should literally not be much. Then the doors open again and Loki comes inside, wearing his casual black/green suit but without a cape this time.

-Tony: "When You're taking about the devil.", he says as soon as he sees Loki.

Loki looks at me confused and I just roll my eyes. He's acting over and maybe he does care but it's still my life, my decisions and if I think that Loki makes me happy than I don't have any problems with hanging out with him.

-Loki: "Stark.", he greets Tony as he comes closer to me, "You okay?", he whispers in my ear and I nod, which makes him take a few steps back again.
-Y/n: "He doesn't like that we've spent the day together.", I say loudly enough that everyone could hear, because it's just so ridiculous.
-Loki: "Really? And why's that if I'm allowed to ask?", he turns in the direction of Tony.
-Tony: "I don't know, maybe you should tell her."

I furrow my eyebrows. Is Loki keeping a secret from me? I mean he probably does but if it involves me than I should have a right to know, shouldn't I?

-Loki: "Not today.", his eyes don't leave Tony and it looks like he almost doesn't blink at all.
-Y/n: "What does he mean?", I ask specifically Loki, who is slowly turning to me.
-Loki: "It's nothing that can't be discusses tomorrow."
-Tony: "Well then, maybe I should tell her.", he stands up from his chair and walks towards us, more towards Loki but I'm standing beside him, so that counts too.
-Loki: "Stark, don't you dare.", he says threatening but that obviously doesn't effect Tony.
-Tony: "Do you remember when we fought against your father? When you betrayed us again, if that is helping you more to memorise it.", he begins looking over Loki's shoulder to me.
-Loki: "Stark.", he says, tensed.
-Y/n: "Why does this involve the fight you had?", I'm just so confused right now.
-Steve: "Tony, maybe now isn't the best time for this.", he says, probably just to remind Tony, but he doesn't do anything to shut him up or anything else.
-Pepper: "Steve's right, Tony.", pepper finally speaks too.
-Y/n: "No, i want to know what this is all about and why you can't just let me be happy."

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Last chapter upcoming.