Forbidden Love [Loki x reader] (Part 1)

Chapter 55 - the end

Longer chapter

-- Your POV --

-Hadeon: "Everything is going to be alright.", he says calmly.

He tries to make me feel a little better and I wish it would actually help me, but it simply doesn't.

After I left the headquarters I found myself going to the café, maybe hoping that I would find Hadeon, maybe hoping that I can be alone. Some of both. And luckily he actually was there. The second I entered and he noticed how fucked up i am right now, he started to care about me. Ordered a glass of water, asked me if I wanted to eat something, which I declined. And now I'm sitting here with my head buried in my hands, eyes hurting, they're probably swollen too.

-Hadeon: "Would you prefer to go somewhere more private?"
I just nod, head not lifting out of my hands, I just can't.
-Hadeon: "Would you mind if we go to my place?"
I shake my head after a while, I'm not in the mood for any conversation.
-Hadeon: "Alright. I quickly pay and I'll be back in a minute."

-- 1 hour earlier --

-Y/n: "Tell me, Loki.", I look at him and he looks terrified.
-Tony: "Yeah, Tell her Loki.", he crossed his arm in front of his chest.
-Loki: "I will tell you tomorrow. Today should be a good day.", he tries to change the subject.
-Tony: "Come on, don't you remember what happened after you brought her to the cell?", he doesn't let go of the subject.
-Y/n: "You put me in there?", I asked shocked.
-Loki: "It was for your safety. You were unconscious and I wanted to protect you. I never thought that they would keep you locked inside."
-Tony: "Yeah, well, that's not quite true. We didn't want the risk that you have another attack incoming, that's why we kept you there and we even voted.", he looks at Loki.
-Loki: "I thought it would be the best for everyone.", he admits, looking down at the ground.
-Y/n: "You voted that I get locked away and you were okay with it?"
-Tony: "That's not all, Princess."
-Y/n: "Don't ever call me princess again.", despite everything that's going on right now, I just wanted to make that clear.
-Tony: "Tell her what else happened."
-Loki: "After I put you in the cell I ran back to fight against your father.", he began after a sigh.
-Y/n: "Obviously. I would've thought that even without you saying that."
-Loki: "You know that your father is dead and someone had to do it, you know that, right?"
-Tony: "What he wants to tell you with that is, that he was the one who killed him.", he said directly after Loki finished.
-Y/n: "Why didn't you tell me? I know someone had to do it.", I'm not even mad.
-Tony: "That's still not everything."
-Loki: "Can't this be enough for today? Come on, I'll tell you tomorrow."

He grabs my wrist and starts to pull me out of the kitchen, but I didn't want to. What can be that awful? Surely it's nothing and he's just freaking out about something that I could understand. I've killed so many innocent people, I've done so much shit. I would understand it. That's why I stop to go along with him shortly before we reached the door.

-Y/n: "Tell me Loki. I don't want to wait until tomorrow. I'm sure it's nothing and you're all just overreacting.", I look at Tony behind me, to not just speak to Loki.
-Tony: "He enjoyed it.", is the only thing he says.
-Y/n: "What does he mean Loki?", I look at Loki again who looks at the ground.
-Tony: "He didn't stop. He was like a beast."
-Loki: "Stop it Stark. This is none of your business.", his grip around my wrist tightens.
-Tony: "After your father was dead, killed by him obviously, he didn't stop to attack him. Your fathers blood was everywhere, he was drained in it but he didn't stop. He mutilated him. We had to drag him away from the rest that was left of your fathers body."
-Y/n: "Is that true?", I ask, my voice way too shaky and weak.
-Loki: "I'm not regretting what I did."

I pull my wrist away from his grip and fold my arms around my body. This isn't about regretting it, this is about the fact that he didn't tell me anything. This is about the fact that he enjoyed it. This is about the fact that everyone else was right about him. How could I be so stupid? When I killed someone I always did it with respect, I can't see a little bit of respect in his eyes. I though about the person I killed even after weeks, he probably didn't even think about him right as it happened.

-Loki: "I did it to safe you, Y/n.", he came towards me but I walked backwards.

He kept walking towards me even though I always walk backwards and away from him. Then suddenly I feel an arm around my shoulders and I look to my right and see Tony. This isn't right either. He knew it the whole time and he just waited until he could prove me that he was right all along. It still hurts though.

I also get out of his grip and walk out of the kitchen. I hear how Loki follows me, his fast steps that are echoing through the hall and I feel how close he is, but he doesn't say anything nor does he touch me and I'm kind of thankful for that. I rush in my room and as I want to close the door he pushes it open.

-Loki: "Please, Y/n. Talk to me."
-Y/n: "Fine. Get out. I want to be alone."
-Loki: "I- I wanted to tell you, really I wanted to but everyone else made it so hard for you and I just wanted to give you a break before I told you this.", I can feel how my tears prick in the bag of my head.
-Y/n: "I said get out.", my voice sounds cool.

Loki looks at me for another second before he looks at the ground and slowly nods. Then he turns around and leaves without another word. As soon as the door closes I let out a relieved sigh and some tears are fighting their way through my eyes. I quickly wipe them away and grab my jacket. I need to get out of here.

— presence —

I don't even know how I got to the café and why but it just felt like a safe place for me at that moment. Thank goodness it was still open and I went inside. I look around to find Hadeon who was already on his way to me. I can tell that he's worried and the second he reached me he hugged me with his arms around my neck. My arms automatically reach round his waist and I bury my face in his chest.

I don't know how long we were standing there like that but after a while, when Hadeon thought that it's okay to stop the hug, he brought me over to a table and ordered a water for me. He didn't ask what happened, he was just there and trying to soothe me with sentences like 'It's going to me okay' 'You can get through this' 'This isn't the end' and so on and it kind of helps but also it does nothing at the same time, I don't know.

When he asked me to go to his place I didn't know what to do. He is so patient with me, doesn't push me for any answers and tries to soothe me. I nod after a while and after he paid, he helped me to stand up and put an arm around me and walked me to his car. The drive was silent, but he kept a hand on my shoulder, to signal me that he's here for me. I appreciate it so much.

We drove to his place, he made me tea and he started to talk about his day to distract me for a while. When the sun was completely gone, he made us two glasses of whine and came closer towards me. He laid an arm around my shoulders and I let it happen. He put on any movie, I didn't care what it was and I didn't watched it because I was tired, and I laid my head on his shoulder. It didn't take long for me until I fell asleep like that.

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That's the end of 'Forbidden Love'
I hope you liked it so far. I try to make part 2 'Forgotten Love' shorter than this part but I was just kind of in the mood to make a second part of this.
Thanks for all the support, I really appreciate it.