Childhood Series 1: Hate to Remember You (Completed)

Prologue

"Sabi kong huwag ngayon, bakit ba ang kulit mo?! Hindi ka ba makaintindi? I told you to fucking shut up! Pero ang dami mong tanong. Mabuti pa sigurong tapusin na natin to. Sawang-sawa na ako sayo. I never really love you anyway."

"I never really love you anyway."

"I never really love you anyway."

"I never really love you anyway."

Paulit-ulit iyong dumaan sa pandinig ko na tila isang bagyo. Masyadong malakas ang epekto at tila gumuho ang pagkatao ko.

"Please Lang, kung may natitira ka pang awa dyan sa sarili mo ay umalis ka na. I'm so done with you. Basura ka na lang sa akin ngayon!" bulyaw niya.

And with that, I broke down. I never thought he could break my heart like this. Sana pala hindi na lang ako sumugal.

Damn. Love.

I gather all my strength to stand up. I wipe my tears and I smiled at him, kita ko ang awa sa kanyang mata pero agad din iyong nawala.

"You're joking, right? Okay, kung ayaw mo ng maingay hindi na muna kita kakausapin. Let's just talk tomorrow. Sorry kung istorbo kita. Then I turned my back to walk in my room.

“I’m serious. Let’s break up."

Napahinto ako sa sinabi niya. Unti-unti na namang tumutulo ang luha ko. Sana panaginip lang ito. We're okay right? bakit bigla na lang ganito?

“Why? May nagawa ba akong mali? Kung ayaw mo ng maingay hindi na ako magdadaldal. Hindi na rin kita guguluhin... just please, don’t do this. Mahal mo naman ako diba...? Please... tell me you love me kahit konti lang, please... magpapakasal pa Tayo di ba? please. huwag namang ganito."

I saw pain flicker in her eyes but he immediately masked it with coldness.

He sighed then look at me with so much coldness in his eyes. Tila naging estranghero ang kaharap ko.

"I’m sorry, but I never did. Ano bang meron sayo para mahalin ko? Did you forget that we used to be enemy before? Lagi kilang inaasar nakalimulan mo na ba? Sa tingin mo talaga magugustuhan ko ang isang babaeng napakasungit at arte na gaya mo? no, You are just a plain stupid girl who can be easily fooled. Anyway, its nice playing with you, gusto ko pa sanang patagalin pero hindi ko na kayang makasama ka. I enjoyed it anyway." Then he smirked. I feel numbed. Parang hindi nagsisink-in sa akin ang sinasabi niya. We were happy yesterday, right? But what is happening now? Bakit bigla siyang nagkaganito?

I tried to stop my tears from falling more so l masked my face with a blanked emotion. If he is telling the truth now, I'm not sure if could still be with him even just a friend.

“Did you really just played with me?" I asked while avoiding his gazed, still scared of what he's going To say.

“Of course I did! masyado ka nga kasing uto-uto. Did you really think that I will love you? kahit ikaw na ang huling babae sa mundo ay inding hindi pa rin kita mamahalin. Remember that"

I pretended that it didn’t hurt kahit ang totoo ay unti-unti ng nadudurog ang puso ko dahil sa mga sinabi niya. I never thought That he could really say those words in front of me. I took a deep breathe then smiled as I finally look in his eyes. The eyes that I once admire but turns into a beautiful nightmare now, Mukha siyang nagulat sa naging reaksiyon ko. Maybe he expected that I will cry and beg more, but no. I'm done.

“Thank you for everything then. Ikaw yong dumating sa buhay ko na sana hindi na lang. Kasi, tahimik lang naman yong buhay ko noon eh, but then you came, ginulo mo. You said you won't hurt me, but look what we are now. You broke me big time. I hope you are happy now. Patas na siguro tayo?"

Pagkasabi ko noon ay agad na akong tumalikod dahil  konti na lang ay tutulo na ang luha ko, bu then I remembered something so I faced him again. He watched me as I remove the ring on my finger. Removing this means letting go of my love for him.

I gave the ring to him. "Remember that I never regret loving you nor regret saying yes to your proposal. Remember That this," Turo ko sa sarili ko. "Stupid girl once loved you and I thank you for breaking my heart because I learned a lot. Do me a favor, If we ever cross along The way, please take The opposite because I don’t want To see you ever again."

Then I walked away. To the man I once loved. I wish I can forget him. I will forget him.