are we meant to be?

part 5

the next day

josh waits outside while my sisters and i get our stuff. when we get in his car he smiles back at me.

josh: what'd you guys have good for breakfast
charli: pancakes

his question was really a subtle way of asking if i ate. i nod a little to let him know i did. he smiles again before driving to school. later at lunch i decided not to eat. i'm just sitting there talking to bryce and charli when josh walks up.

josh: here cars just thought you'd want this

he hands me a small container of salad. ugh. why is he so thoughtful. i smile and take it. he leaves and goes back to sitting with dixie. i eat some of the salad.

charli: what's going on there

i don't wanna tell anyone about me not eating.

you: he just knows i like salad i guess. i don't know

i shrug a little and her and bryce buy it. then i text josh

josh

carson
thank you

josh
anytime. and btw dixie
invited me over for dinner.
i'm gonna make sure you eat.

carson
fuck you

josh
:)

ughhhh. fuck you dixie. later after school josh drives us all home then him and dixie leave to go to the gym.

charli: there's definitely something going on with you and josh. is he cheating on dixie?
you: no!
charli: then what
you: nothing
charli: i'm gonna find out
you: have fun with that. what ab you and chase?
charli: shut up

she goes to her room and i laugh to myself before going to my room. later at dinner time, i go to the table and find josh sitting right next to my chair. i sit down in my usual spot which is next to him. he normally sits next to dixie across from me but whatever. everyone else sits down and starts to eat.

derek: carson you ok?
you: ya not hungry
josh: here

the bitch scoops spaghetti into my plate and i glare at him. he just smiles at me. ughh fuck him and his need to help everyone. i eat a little and then give josh a "can i be done" look. he nods and i put my fork done.

you: it was good. thanks mom
meredith: of course. i thought bryce was coming for dinner
you: shit!
charli: oops! we- um see the thing is-
you: we forgot

i run to the front door and unlock it. then i see bryce sitting on our porch steps.

you: sorry! but why didn't you knock
bryce: i did dumbass. 6 times. and called you and charli
you: sorry

i let him in and we go sit at the table. bryce eats.

bryce: j, dix, you guys thinking ab college?

josh and bryce are kinda friends. like they'll talk but they would never hangout alone.

josh: nah. probably gonna stay here
dixie: ya me too
meredith: dixie jane you are going to college
dixie: nuh uh

my mother rolls her eyes making me almost choke on my water and charli almost spit out her food. dixie kicks charlis shin.

josh: what about you?
bryce: i'm not really sure yet

we all make small talk til dinners done. i'm doing the dishes when josh comes over.

josh: come on
you: what?
josh: let's go workout
you: why?
josh: well since i'm making you eat, it'll help your mind if you workout. like let you eat without gaining anything
you: ok but didn't you already go with dixie earlier?
josh: damn you ask too many questions *laughs* but ya. i usually go twice a day. once with dixie. then once with my sister. you wanna come with us or not?
you: y- ya i guess. lemme go change.

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idk what to say here rn. hope your enjoying this shat.