are we meant to be?

part 15

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the night was fun but honestly kinda just wanted to be home. i hate dresses and i feel like people could see my bruises. plus- heels kill my feet. fuck being a girl. literally josh gets to wear nice shoes that are probably comfy and a suit that looks comfy as hell. ughh. the only part about the heels that i didn't mind, was when jodh dropped us off at home, bryce carried me inside.

you: your like a fucking ogre
bryce: the fuck?
you: your huge and don't act like a human being. therefore- ogre.
bryce: whatever makes sense to you idiot

he sets me down in my room then leaves. i shower and go to bed in josh's t-shirt and sweatpants that i stole from him a bit ago. i curl up in my bed and fall asleep. the next day is a saturday. low key best day of the week. jk- not low key. everyone knows it's the best. i go downstairs and see charli

you: hey charles
charli: hey. chase is coming over later today

great. i immediately say the first thing that pops into mind.

you: bryce is coming over

i need someone to be with me full time around chase that way he won't do anything. usually i would've said josh but bryce just came to mind first. i go text bryce.

bryce ballz❤️

carson
your coming over today

bryce
no can do

carson
what? whyyy

bryce
going out with addison

carson
fine i'll just ask josh

bryce
uhhh- sorry but him dixie
mads and jaden are coming too

carson
bitches. everyone's a bitch.

bryce
love you too❤️

fuck fuck fuck. i don't have other friends. oh fuck. and my parents are at work all day. if i fake being sick maybe josh will stay with me? or charli won't invite chase? no. i'm not that much of an ass.i just get dressed and eat something.

charli: hey!

and... he's here. i'm not gonna go sit in my room because then he can come up and i'll be alone. so i'm just gonna stay down here in the open so if my parents were to get home, they would see anything.

chase: hi carson
you: hi
chase: where's josh?
you: with dixie and everyone
chase: ah.

him and charli sit on the couch cuddling and watching movies while i sit at the counter where
i can see them.

charli: i'm gonna go get a quick shower then we can go to lunch ok?

chase nods and charli goes upstairs. fuck. shit. chase walks over to me.

TW sexual assault ⚠️
(if you don't wanna read- skip to the next time you see the caution emoji thing)

he comes behind me and starts kissing my neck. i know if i say something about it he'll hit me, so i keep quiet.

chase: upstairs. now.
you: w- while charlis home?
chase: yes. let's go.

he grips my arm tightly dragging me up the stairs to my room. he locks the door to my room and pushes me on the bed.

chase: clothes off.

i do as he says and he immediately strips himself. he grabs a condom from my dresser drawer. i mean at least he's using protection. that's good. he puts it on, and comes over. i start to cry at what's about to happen. he starts pounding into me so fast that i'm balling my eyes out. while he does this, he's also sucking on my neck and biting. not gonna lie, it hurts like hell. after a bit, he finishes and gets dressed. i lie there not being able to move. this happens everytime. i'm traumatized for the first hour or so, then the rest of that day i just keep remembering it, then after that i try to forget.

chase: those hickeys are from josh. got it?

i nod quickly. no one will notice this, but josh never leaves hickeys in plain sight. he always puts them on my chest, collarbone, or the back of my neck where no one can see them. chase goes downstairs leaving me lying on my bed helpless.

⚠️tw over

i hear charli yell up that they're leaving. for a bit i lie in my bed. no clothes since i can't move. all i want in the world right right now is for josh to hold me and tell me it's ok. for him to tell me how i'm worth it and chase is a dick.

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hi :)