are we meant to be?

part 66

josh's pov~

bryce: i probably shouldn't be telling you this but carson's coming over. she wants you back.
josh: she does? h- how?
bryce: she can explain that but i just wanted to let you know

a ginormous smile appears on my face at the fact i'm getting the love of my life back. i go to my room. i decided i wanna ask her to be my girlfriend but do it someway special. i ordered some things on amazon but they won't be here for a few days. fuck. i need to stall her. i don't want her to confess how she feels until i'm able to ask her to be my girlfriend the minute she tells me. i need some way to hold her off. i cant say i'm not home because bryce told her i was. i cant say i don't feel well because she's wanna take care of me. there's only one possible thing that would work. but- it involves hurting her again. i could have a girl over and tell carson i'm moving on. it might crush her but it'll all be worth it when we're together again.

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i kinda regret telling her that. i can tell when she's faking. she's hurt and it's my fault. i hope that in a few days it will all be better though.

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all my stuff from amazon finally came in. i went shopping at target to get a few things too. i haven't told anyone what i'm doing yet. but i will need bryce and jadens help. i get everything all set up. a room with blankets and beanbags and shit. i bought a projector and a screen. also a dvd of carson's all time favorite movie, the notebook. then i got her favorite snacks and drinks from target. i picked her out some fuzzy socks, a stuffed elephant, and a new fuzzy blanket. i bought some roses and a card. i put one of my sweatshirts and a pair of my sweatpants in the room because carson loves to wear my stuff. i hope this all goes well. now for the final part of my plan.

josh: bryce!
bryce: what do you want man
josh: i need your help. it's for carson
bryce: i'm not helping you fix your relationship. you fucked up again
josh: no no you don't understand-

i explain to him and he agreed to help me. he texted carson to come over in about an hour. she said yes. perfect. i got jaden to help out by having him watch for when carson gets here. and once she's here, he's gonna film it.

jaden: she's here!

oh shit. ok. you've got this josh. she loves me. i just gotta hope she'll forgive me for the little stunt i pulled. i hope this goes perfect.

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