are we meant to be?

part 46

josh: i think we should break up completely

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josh: trust me i want this no more than you but it's best.

my eyes fill with tears.

josh: and i'm gonna be going back to LA.
you: josh- please. w- we can make us work-

once again he shakes his head no.

you: please-
josh: carson. if you love me... let me go

all my tears fall and so do a few of josh's. he tries to wipe my tears but i move away and stand up.

josh: carso-
you: d- don't touch me

he looks as if i just broke him by saying that meanwhile he broke me. i run up to his room grabbing sweatpants and a sweatshirt throwing them on because i don't wanna wear my dress. i run back downstairs crying.

josh: please wai-
you: leave me alone! *crying

i grab my phone and dress and run outside, running home. i hear josh yell for me but i don't turn around. it's now pouring down rain and i'm soaked in rain water. i run into my house and straight to charlis room. fuck! she's not there. i go to my room and cry. i cry for hours. charli never came home. josh is blowing up my phone but i never answered. it was 2
in the afternoon the next day. she comes into my room.

charli: did you and josh have fun- what happened??

she comes over hugging me. i explain it all. i just lay there staring at the wall now.

charli: he can't keep fucking with your heart!

that day i skipped therapy. and the next. and the next.

josh's pov~

just got to LA and i'm scared for my life. bryce probably knows by now. he can beat me up all he wants.

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i get back to sway and go in.

bryce: you hurt her again?!

here we go. i just nod and he swings hitting the side of my face

bryce: why?!
josh: this is the last time i'm hurting her. we're done for good and i don't regret a thing

he punches my jaw. when i said i didn't regret anything, i meant im glad i can't hurt her anymore after this.

bryce: how could you ever do shit like this to her?! she fucking loves you and you just hurt her every time.
josh: i- do you think it's easy breaking the LOVE OF MY LIFES HEART?!
bryce: well you sure fucking do it a lot!
josh: the other times were misunderstandings!
bryce: this time wasn't!
josh: i'm trying to help her! this is the only way i can help now!!!!!

i just screamed at my bestfriend. i storm off to my room and lay down crying a bit. it seems weird for guys to cry but it's normal. i do it a lot more than i probably should. mainly about carson.

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short chapter. but i dropped a little foreshadowing hint thing. lmao. comment what you think it is