are we meant to be?

part 100

i love my life.

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life truly is amazing. i've taken it for granted for so long but i realize how awesome it is. i have a really great life even though some parts of it are fucked up. i remember that whenever i found out i was adopted, i wished that i was never adopted. if that wouldn't have happened i would not have met my bestfriends and the love of my life. and honestly, i would hate a life without all of them.

i have learned now to appreciate the good things in life because they don't always stick around. kinda like bryce and addison. i wish they could've known how much they mean to me. i've started to show my affection towards the ones i love now. obviously i showed josh before, but i've started letting jaden mads dixie and charli know how big of a role they play and how much i need them. they've affected the person i am today.

life has its ups and downs. trust it coming from me. i know what life's downs are like. my depression, anxiety, and anorexia are all apart of who i am. it makes me feel different. i'm glad i've been strong enough and have people who love me, that help me through the hard times. they don't run when life gets tough. they stick around to make sure i'm alright. that's what i love the fucking most about my friends. they're always here for me.

people say young love is just a little fling that won't last once you get older. those people obviously have no fucking clue what they're talking about. you could say that josh and i are gonna break up soon or whatever, but i know that whatever happens, we'll make our way back to eachother. he's walked me through the tough times and stuck by my side. sure we fight a good bit, but healthy couples fight. it's kinda weird how you fall in love with someone who is your complete opposite. opposites attract i guess. but anyways. when i think of the future, i think of joshua. i mean- if it weren't for him getting me down on the roof that one day, i would have no future.

so in all i guess, life throws you some pretty unexpected shit. but as they all say, when life hands you lemons, make lemonade.

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THE END!!!!! kinda sad though :(

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almost there...

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STAY TUNED FOR THE SEQUAL OF CARSONS LIFE AS AN ADULT AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS!!!!!!!!!! 

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