are we meant to be?

part 78

everyone left yesterday. i ended up talking to my mom and jess and apologizing for yelling at them. they apologized for arguing. today is the 28th meaning bryce and addison get back. jaden and mads got back a few hours ago and are now unpacking. it's like it's 2:00 in the afternoon. bryce and addison should've been home by now. it's a 6 hour flight meaning they land at 12:30 but using LA time, it would be more like 9 AM when they got in. it's 5 hours past. where are they? i've texted bryce. no answer. maybe their flight was delayed this morning and he's still on the plane. probably. i go into the sway kitchen because i'm bored.

jaden: what's up
you: bored as fuck
jaden: wanna go sing? while mads and i were away i got a sick tune stuck in pain. it's not really my style though so i was gonna see if maybe you wanted to use it. it's kinda like slow and sad. idk.
you: ya sure

we head down to the studio and jaden plays the tune.

you: this is good jaden. i don't have any lyrics though. i got the chorus for if you love me let me go from my breakup with josh. but nothing bad has happened to me recently. josh and i are in a really good place. my mental health is good
jaden: maybe a happy song this time *laughs
you: if the words come to me

later i go back upstairs and sit on the couch with mads. she has the news on. who the fuck even watches the news.

"flight 421 from toronto canada to los angeles california has crashed in colorado. passengers boarded at 6:30 AM and the plane crashed around 8 AM. i'm sorry to say that no one had survived"

wasn't that bryce and addisons flight?!?!

"the passengers have all been identified."

she reads almost 50-60 names and no addison or bryce. phew.

"some of you may know famous tiktokers bryce hall and addison rae. they were aboard that plane. it is a terrible tragedy for people all over"

me and mads look at eachother with tears in our eyes. addison was mads bestfriend ever. like bryce was mine.

you: th- they-

mads nods. josh and jaden walk in talking and laughing. i now have my hand over my mouth with tears in my eyes.

josh: princess? what's wrong?

he sits next to me rubbing my back.

you: b- bryce a- addison. th- th- th-

tears are pouring from my eyes.

jaden: huh?
mads: th- th-

neither of us can form words from our tears. mads just points to the tv where the news channel is showing bryce and addisons pictures and the sight of the plane crash.

jaden: w- was that their plane?

we nod and tears roll down both their cheeks.

my bestfriend in the entire world is gone. FUCKING GONE! what the hell am i supposed to do? he has been the person i lean on for everything. he's there for me all the time. he can't just die. i didn't even get to say goodbye. and addison- she can't die yet. she's so sweet and everyone loves her. they're just gone? like that? i didn't give them proper goodbyes. just a quick bye before they left for canada. how could i not have said a better goodbye? i never will get to now. they're gone and there's no getting them back. how could i lose my bestfriend?!

i put my head in josh's chest while my tears soak his shirt. he holds me tightly and even though i can tell he's trying to be strong and hold it in, i can feel his tears. then charli walks in the sway house. she's gonna take this hard.

charli: why are you all upset?

josh let's go of me and go hugs her. i see him whisper it in her ear and then she cries.

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