Good Things Never Last

Chapter 58

"Wilbur was going to blow it up..."

"Will?"
When I returned my gaze to the brunette, he was staring at his feet as if they were the most interesting thing in the world. The only noise in the silence between us all was his heavy breathing as it ricocheted against the cave walls.

"Will please... Talk to me"
It was impossible for me to process everything. First, my supposed best friend nearly killed me, and then my other best friend allegedly attempted to blow up an entire country with me in it. Brilliant.

"Will..."
"I didn't want to scare you. I didn't want to make you scared of me Y/N"
He wasn't denying it.
He wanted to blow up L'Manburg.
He wanted to blow up the only place I had ever really felt at home.

"Will you can't be serious"
I looked around, watching everyone tense under my gaze.
"You all knew, didn't you?"

They'd betrayed me once again. They used me as a pawn in their stupid little scheme. All of them avoided looking at me apart from the one I wasn't certain of. While everyone else stared at the floor, I felt eyes burn through my skin as I turned my head, locking eyes with the lifeless ones who belonged to the mask.

"Why..."
My question was directed at the only person who dared to look at me, but the response came from the distressed brunette as he fiddled with his fingers.

"It's a lost cause Y/N. We can no longer live in peace, especially after this. We used to believe that a rebellion could win using only peaceful words, but we now know that it's impossible. Violence is the universal language after all"
His brown eyes caught mine as he raised his head. The pale colour of his face empathised the deep purple bags that hung under his eyes from weeks of almost no sleep.

"But we can still get it back Will! People are turning against Schlatt on the daily, and I bet even more are going to after the stunt that was pulled at the festival"
Part of me was irritated that my brother had cut it, but another part of me was relieved since it allowed me to go over Wilbur's words in my head. Will, on the other hand, didn't even blink at his comments. His gaze remained fixed on me, examining my entire body as he awaited a response, some sort of reaction. But I just stood still. Partly because I was deep in thought with lots of different options running through my head. But the main reason I didn't move was due to the pain that was tearing through my body.

"I couldn't tell you because I couldn't risk losing you Y/N. I couldn't risk you looking at me like the deranged maniac that I'm slowly becoming. I want you to look at me like you used to. I need you to still look at me like you do Y/N. I couldn't risk losing that"
Years ago, those words would've made me a flustered wreck. Fuck it. I would have probably acted the same way months ago. But I wasn't that innocent little girl anymore. I'd changed, and so had he.

"Maybe you're right"
Each set of eyes in the room came to settle on me as I stood with clenched fists while kissing the back of my teeth, anger surging through my veins.
"See Will. Even Y/N agrees!"
"I'm not agreeing with you Tommy"
I didn't mean for my tone to be as harsh and cold as it was, but I couldn't help myself as the overwhelming sensation of betrayal washed over me.

"L'Manburg. My L'Manburg. My home was built out of trust, loyalty, and honesty and I failed to see that my home died a long, fucking time ago"
Tommy took a small step forward, opening his mouth to respond, but I cut him off.
"Each and every one of you standing before me has been corrupted. Corrupted by the power that each of you holds, no matter how much or how little it is"

"From having the power yourself"
My attention shifted between Dream and Wilbur as the two exchanged glances.
"Having the urge to fight against it"
My eyes fell on Techno as he quickly looked away, unable to meet my eyes.
"To watching it tear apart everything you know and love"
I glanced over at the others before noticing a pair of blue eyes staring at his leader, allowing me to finally realise how insignificant I really was to him.

"Because in the end, it isn't power that corrupts people, people corrupt power"
I finished my little speech as I slowed my breathing until it almost seemed to stop. The feeling of being watched made my palms become clammy as another flash of pain raced through me.

"So quite frankly, I'm too tired to care anymore. My opinion won't silence your subconsciousness in your mind from telling you what to do. I don't see any reason why I should stop it because when I try to, I get pushed aside like I'm nothing, like I mean nothing to any of you. Like it wasn't me who helped each and every fucking one of you on your bad days. I'm tired of being cast aside when I'm no longer needed. I'm tired of being shut out because you all think I'm weak. I'm tired of you all babying me. I'm tired of all your bullshit."

I locked eyes with Wilbur as his mouth fell agape in shock at my outburst, taken aback as I finally voiced my opinion.
"I'm not the girl I once was, Will. A lot has changed, so you shouldn't expect me to be the same I once was, because that part of me is dead no thanks to all you"
My voice bounced off the stone walls as I shot a glare at Wilbur one more time before turning away and storming off. I did technically limp away, but it doesn't really have as much dramatic effect.

I stumbled through the cold ravine, heading straight for the purple void surrounded by obsidian that I always avoided.

No one would bother me there while I gather my thoughts.