Finding my way back (KOV #4)

Broken Inside

* 6 months later..

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West Mitchell Collins

It's been six hellish months since Cece and I had parted ways because of what Katlaine did, she would only talk to me if it's regarding our annulment but I don't want to do that. I don't want to lose her so I'm not gonna sign those papers, I'm not gonna cooperate at all. If ignoring her means our marriage won't end then so be it, I'd rather keep it that way.

It turns out that Psyche is telling the truth about Katlaine and what she did, I'm furious and disappointed because I treated her as my own sister but look at what she had done to me? To Cece and I? My relationship with my wife? She ruined everything!!

When we checked the footage from Psyche's vehicle, we saw that a man handed Laine some party drugs. Perhaps? it was the time when she excused herself to go to the bathroom but she didn't go there and instead, she went to the parking lot to meet up with a man to the take the drugs and paid whoever that guy. Psyche heard their conversation and the way they opened their mouth is exactly the same as what she said.

The only thing that I regret the most is trusting Katlaine.

We've been friends for quite some time now, how can she do this bullshit to me? Did I do something wrong to her? Was it because I refused to marry her? Or that I rejected her and told her that I will never ever see her like the way I see my own wife? If not, then why?! I want answers!

But she wouldn't tell me why.

Katlaine is important for me as well, I just don't understand why she would have to go this far to get my attention and to chased Cece away from me. She didn't just simply made a mistake, this is too cruel to be considered as a mistake. She obviously did this on purpose, if she's thinking that I'd love her if Cece is gone then she's completely wrong.

I would never trade temporary pleasure for permanent regret.

She knew what she had done wrong and now, she's living with the consequences. I just hoped that she'd change even though she wouldn't be able to make things right because it already happened, Cece is still feeling furious towards me and she's still thinking that I cheated on her. I wish life had a rewind button.

If I didn't reunited with Katlaine after a long period of time and if I hadn't gone to that event and danced with Katlaine that night then none of this would've happened in the first place but fuck it because everything is done now. Some things are just too inevitable and I'm too powerless to stop it from happening.

Blaming Katlaine and myself is pretty much pointless now because I can't neither Laine can undone things, I just seriously hate her for ruining everything. I love Cecelia so much, but I don't understand, my mind can't comprehend why she can't trust me at all. I never stared at any other girls when if she's not around, I never fell in love with anyone after just once glance except for her.

After everything that we had been through together along with all the secrets and the truths about me that I told her about without any hesitatiom, I wonder why she still doesn't trust me nor my words at all. We've been married for a year now, but we didn't get to celebrate because of this mess.

I greeted her, I told her that I have a proof that I didn't cheated on her and that what happened was a set up but she wouldn't agree to meet up with me. She never want to see my face ever she again, but since I can't survive off of that circumstance then I'm getting her back once this war against the syndicates is finally over.