𝖍𝖝𝖍 𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖘

If We Have Each Other ~ Illumi Zoldyck

Top!Illumi (no smut sillyyy)

Author: hisokapegger (on ao3)

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Lies of omission weren't technically lies. They didn't involve making up false information. However, they were just as misleading. That was probably why she had that uneasy feeling every time she faced him now.

As an assassin, she didn't really expect Illumi Zoldyck to be one hundred percent honest with her. So she convinced herself she wasn't doing anything wrong by hiding the truth from him. They were alike after all. But the way their relationship had been evolving made it wrong.

[Name] avoided dating as much as possible for two reasons. The first one was because her job was extremely time-consuming. The second one was because she didn't want a temporary lover to hurt her daughter.

But her new lover didn't seem to know the word temporary. They had only been dating for a few months yet he seemed to think they would never leave each other. It should have been frightening the way he had so quickly planned out everything for them. But it wasn't, it was endearing in a way.

Illumi brought a sense of stability in the single mom's life that she wasn't used to. He talked about forever with a carefree attitude, like it was easy. But [Name] never believed in forever. Which was why she hid the truth from him in the first place. Because as soon as he would find out, the plans he made for them would crumble down, or so she thought.

The view from the private dining room the assassin had reserved for the young woman was stunning. The city looked quite breathtaking from that height and it made [Name] a little dizzy. The small light dots from the streets and buildings contrasted beautifully with the night sky and it almost made her forget about her nervousness.

[Name] still wasn't used to all the fancy places Illumi brought her. It made her quite uncomfortable actually. But whenever she would bring it up the assassin would just brush off her concerns saying it wasn't much from him. Still, she couldn't help feeling like she owed him.

The young man in front [Name] looked at her with his deep black eyes and she felt like he was somehow catching up on the truth without her even talking. But that was impossible. She was just being paranoid. Besides she was just about to bring the subject up when he spoke first.

"Are you alright [Name]? You look a little tense."
"No, I'm fine. There's just something I have been wanting to talk with you for a while now," she admitted, avoiding his stare.
"What is it?"

She stayed silent for a little while. Why was it that her mind would go blank when she needed it the most? [Name] took a breath and prepared herself for the conversation that would potentially lead them to their break up.

"Look, I haven't been completely honest with you, Illumi."
"Yeah, I know," he said nonchalantly.

[Name]'s eyes widened a little. Of course, he knew, he was a Zoldyck. He probably had unlimited information about whoever he wanted. The young woman suddenly felt terribly stupid.

"Wait, you know what I'm hiding from you?"
"No. I have ways to know though. But I thought I would let you some time to come clean to me. It must be a pretty big secret to have you all worked up like this, isn't it?"
"Well yeah. But I was just keeping the truth away from you because I was scared about how you'd react. I have a daughter, you see? She's two years old, turning three this year and her name is Mayuri," she explained, feeling rather relieved after that confession.

Illumi didn't react, not that she expected him to. He just stared at [Name] while her mind was racing, thinking about what could possibly be going on in his head.