UPSTEAD ONE SHOT(S)

I'm Not Going Anywhere

Hailey layed curled up in her bed in one of Jay's t-shirts, crying her eyes out. She seriously thought she lost him for good- even partner wise. She wanted to be the one to drop the shoe first this time around thinking it would hurt less, but, in actual fact, it hurt more. It hurt more, because she was deeply in love with the man she pushed away. She pushed the person she trusted most away. It hurt like a bullet to the heart.

After a while, there was a knock at the door. She groaned, not in the mood for any visitors. The knocking continued and the pace of it increased, forcing her to fling herself off the bed to answer the door. Hailey was a right state, yet she really couldn't have cared less.
When she saw who was standing on the other side of the door, she got the shock of her life. Hailey looked like a fish out of water, staring at Jay in shock; tears still streaming down her tiny face.

"Jay" Hailey exhaled- half panic, half relief.

"Hey, can we talk?" He quietly asked, not wanting to scare Hailey. It was clear as day that Hailey was a mess already, and it killed him too see her like that.

"Yeh, sure" Hailey said, moving to the side to let Jay in.

The two sat on the opposite ends of the sofa rather subdued, waiting for the other to start the conversation. Jay knew he needed to start the conversation, yet he wanted to see if Hailey would open up first. Not pushing his luck, but making sure she knew she was safe, Jay stretched his arm out and placed his hand gently on Hailey's knee. The contact made Hailey stiffen, but then she instantly deflated at the hugely meaningful and simple gesture. "Jay....I...I'm sorry. You and me, we should just call it now. You deserve better than me, you really do" Hailey stammered, her own words punching her in the stomach. "Hailey, don't be like that. You know that isn't true" Jay argued softly, his heart breaking with Hailey breaking things off. "Please, don't make this any harder than it already is" Hailey begged, a new set of tears rolling down her blotchy face.

"Okay, if that's what you really want. But, first, please give me one reason why you aren't good enough for me"

Hailey stared across to Jay, the pain gleaming in his tearful eyes. She hated herself for what she was doing to him; it was the best choice for him though in the long run, she told herself. "Because of this morning. I run when things get too real. I didn't want to run, but I didn't know what else to do. I don't know how do it properly" Hailey admitted, lazering holes in the floor beneath her. "Don't know how to do what?" Jay questioned, genuinely unsure of what Hailey was meaning.

"Relationships. Intimacy. Telling people how I feel. I'm too screwed up for it. My walls, they're way to high" Hailey answered, wiping her tears away for the first time.

Jay sighed, shaking his head at how Hailey's past with her father had stopped her from being able to truly love somebody, and not be scared. She didn't verbally tell him that was the reason, but like always, Jay knew what was going on with Hailey. It was their thing after all. "Let me help you then. Guide you. That's if you let me" Jay took a tight grip on Hailey's shakey hand, forcing her to look him in the eye. "You shouldn't have to teach someone how to be in a relationship, or how to be intimate. To trust. Why would you want too, when there are plenty of other less screwed up lasses out there?" Hailey couldn't wrapp her head around the fact that Jay wasn't running, and was willing to stay with her no matter what.

"Remember, I'd follow you anywhere. Plus, I don't care about any other girl out there. You're the only one I care about, Hails. I wanna show you what it's like to truly be in love and feel safe. I couldn't imagen anything better" Jay explained, making it crystal clear that he was going where Hailey was going. "But..."
"No buts, Hailey. There isn't any at all, even if you think there is. We can figure it out, learn how to do it together. Because, really, I'm not too good at the relationship thing myself. I wanna learn with you. Show you what I already know, but be better at it with you" Hailey wasn't the only one in tears anymore, Jay was an equal state. His eyes were bright red, his cheeks puffy and drained. "You mean that?" Hailey questioned, a glimps of hope shining through timidly in her eyes and voice. "I do. I'm not going anywhere, Hailey. Really, I'm not" Jay promised, he couldn't imagen leaving his World's side. Hailey nodded, bursting into tears at how much Jay cared for her. It was beyond her expectations to find a guy that was decent, never mind one that was as amazing as Jay Halstead.
"Come here" Jay whispered, opening his arm for Hailey to slide into. Happily accepting the hug she so needed, she slid herself under Jay's arm and rested her head against his chest. Both now in their favourite place: each other's arms.

Only a silent, emotional conversation was shared after that- not even eye-contact was needed this time. From that moment on, she one hundered percent knew that Jay was not going anywhere, that he was the one she loved to the end of time and back.

A/N: Hope part 2 wasn't a complete let down, I was hoping for it to be less of a mess. All comments and votes would be hugely appreciated. So would any one shot ideas, too. (Hol, I have enough from you though, thankyou very much😂💖)