Y/n Stark

Back to normal? Or still the same?

Y/n POV

Dad told me i should rest for the day and we would do it in the morning, and that's what I did. I slept through the whole night. Pretty surprised about the fact that I slept a whole night. I think this was the last time I will sleep ‚good'. At least for the next time It will be harder when I get all my memories back. I overslept my alarm and Friday had to wake me up.
„Y/n it is time to get up. Mister Stark is already waiting for you." I groaned because I didn't want to get up. I rolled out of bed and hopped into a quick shower. I got ready and headed to the kitchen. Dad sat there with the whole team having breakfast. I wasn't really hungry so I just grabbed a glass of juice.
„You should eat something sweetie." dad didn't raised his head from his tablet while he drank something from his coffee. I took a sip of my Glas and said „not really hungry. Are you ready?" I asked him directly trying to avoid the eyes that were laying on me. „I could ask you the same. But yes everything is prepped." I nod and went to the meeting room where he got everything ready. „I won't wait long dad." I yelled out as I was in the hallway heading to my destination.

I entered the room and sat down in front of the monitor waiting anxiously for the answers I was waiting for. I had to get myself together and bury this anxiety so that no one could see it. Nat and Wanda can practically smell when something is off and as much as I love how they care I fell like it should be only me facing this. „Okay I got you everything on the monitor. You just have to control it from the laptop." dad yelled as he bursted through the door and placing a laptop in front of me. He sat down with one leg on the table and looked down at me. „I know you are the most stubborn person here. Probably more than me but I want you to have someone by you're side and I mean it serious. This won't be anything but easy. I admire you for the fact that you want to do it alone, but we are all family and we hold onto each other. You were alone for five years but you're not anymore." dad really has the words to convince me. I gave in.
„Fine. Let them in." dad couldn't even say anything as Nat and Wanda came through the door. I knew that they were waiting outside for me. „We're happy that you decided to not do it alone." Nat said with a soft smile. „Yeah we're here for you." Wanda added gentle. „I did it for you." I turned to dad and nod at him giving him the sign to leave. He tapped at my shoulder and got up to leave. The only ones remaining are are the three of us. „I wanna get this over with. So I will see if I can find anything." They both sat beside me. I looked at the laptop having a lot of files open. One caught my eye immediately. It said ‚the last experiment'. I had a gut feeling that this would unleash memories. I feel how Nat and Wanda looked at me from both sides not knowing why I stopped at this file. „Hey. Y/n are you okay?" Nat placed her hand on my shoulder bringing me back out of my mind. I cleared my throat „yeah fine. Just zoned out for a moment." Nat glanced at Wanda and so did she again. „You know you don't need to do it." Wanda said softly and caring. „I know. But if I won't do it now I might never consider doing it." and I clicked at the file opening a video Footage.

It didn't play immediately but I was the frozen picture before it started. Thomas and me. Both standing and wearing a white lab coat. I froze again and just placed my fingers on the screen stroking at the Frozen picture of Thomas. Emotions already started to come through but I could still hold them back for a while. I pressed play and leaned back into my chair eyes locked at the monitor. I felt eyes on me but I didn't give it any attention. I let the video play without the intention to stop it. I saw how we worked in the laboratory. We worked on ‚project rebirth'. I know it sounds silly but it's way better than ‚project blossem'. Thomas was way to silly if it comes to giving things names and he always made me laugh about it. Wait. What did I just do? I remembered. I smiled slightly at myself confusing the girls that sat beside me not putting an eye away from me. They didn't say anything. The video played on and we reached the point where it got steamy. I remember it now. My calculations were wrong and I placed a huge input on the developing machines. The outcome was wrong and it caused a huge explosion witch made me jump a bit in my chair. Tears filled my eyes and they burned. My vision went blurry but I blinked them away to see better. It was quiet. I didn't hear anything but machines crashing and exploding in the background. After some long seconds there was a picture back in the camera. This image appeared and I knew from the second I saw it I won't get it out of my head. Thomas laying motionless on the ground and me knelling next to him. My hands placed on his chest and face stroking it slowly. My hands grabbed onto the chair handles tightening my grip. I heard the painfully last conversation with my love and I saw how the life has faded out of his eyes and entire body. „I love you" was the last thing that recorded and I was screaming out in agony for my loss. He was really gone and it was my fault completely. I held onto my stomach in pain and let out my tears without a sound. Nat and Wanda looked shocked and surprised at me, probably because I didn't go insane. I am wondered about myself too. I let out the breath that I was holding in for so long. It was silent for what fells like an eternity until someone spoke up.

„We Are sorry for you're loss Y/n. He didn't deserve to die like this and you didn't deserve to lose him like this." Nat said while she stroked my shoulder. I closed my eyes and placed my head back to move my face up. „We're here for you no matter what. We know how hard it is for you to see it and we wanted to prevent this from you." Wanda opened up.
I chuckled at myself causing the two girls to wonder what was wrong with me. „I know it's not funny but I don't even remember. Only him." they both looked at each other worried and concerned. „It will probably take time. Maybe they will come floating in the course of the day." Wanda explained while stoking my thigh. „Don't force yourself Y/n. It will come back eventually." Nat still had her hand resting in my shoulder. I took the hands that rested on my body into mine and told them „thank you for being here. But I want to be alone now." I squeezed them for a brief moment and let go. I got up and walked out of the door leaving them behind. Once again.

Wanda POV
She left us behind in the meeting room. The air here was thick and we both were confused. We both didn't really know how to react or tell her that it will be fine. She was awfully quiet what made me curious. „She took it in well. Didn't she?" I told Nat and she scoffed at me. „She definitely didn't Wanda. Did you see how quiet she was? Her being quiet is completely wrong. She just didn't want to let it out in front of us. She hates to feel like this and she doesn't want anyone to see." she had a point. „Did you see how she held onto her stomach synchronized with herself in the video. Do you think it means something?" I was practically analyzing everything about her while she watched the video of Thomas dying. „I don't know. But we can't let her be alone for long. She is completely destroyed and we need to be close to her." I don't know how to feel about This it she definitely needs us, and I will be there for her.