Y/n Stark

Ice, Smirnoff ice and therapy

Wanda POV
...Y/n was standing in the doorway tears pooling in her eyes. Who knows for how long she was standing there. „W-where did you get that from?" she asked pointing at the frozen monitor.
„We destroyed a hydra base a couple hours ago. We could get information on a stick before we left." Steve answered for everyone. She was still standing there in shock seeing herself on the screen. Her memories are probably floating back like crazy. „Is this all you got?" she looked at Tony and then at Steve pointing at the screen. „We have More." Tony answered while lowering his head.
„This is only the surface. It's not the worst. S-so please just stop. I don't want you to see me like that." even in her worst moment she is trying to secure us from what has happened to her.
„We're so sorry Y/n." I got up and she stepped back in shock. I didn't expect a reaction like this from her. „Sorry for what? Lying to me?" she said and I didn't know what she was implying on.
„Bubs what Are you Talking about?" I asked As i tried to get closer to her but she stepped back again. „Oh don't Play dumb on my account now."
„Y/n what is wrong?" Nat asked and I glanced at her. Y/n scoffed. „Wow Nat question off the year. You ask what's wrong? Everyone in this room has been lying to me. Including you. Why don't you all get you're brain cells to work and maybe you will know why I am so mad." she whipped her tears away angry. „She knows." Bucky said from across the room with crossed arms against his chest.
„And you Bucky. I thought out off all people you would have wanted me to know. After on what I let you in. Thank you for that." my eyes widen at her answer. She knows about Thomas being Schmidt's Son. „Look Y/n, I wanted to protect you okay. You've been through so much and I thought it was best if you wouldn't know." she looked at me in disbelief. „Don't you think that this is my decision to make? This information would have effected me either way. It doesn't matter when I would find it out." Tony got up from his seat coming closer. „You know we only wanted to keep you safe. This is obviously hitting a nerve." Well This didn't really help. „No you don't see it. Not even now. I am angry about the fact that I didn't see the red flags while I was in Germany. Wich i am most angry about is that you kept me in the dark about it. That you lied. That I was eavesdropping on my team. Only to find out that every single one off you decided to keep it a secret. For how long where you even planing on keeping this hidden? Weeks? months? after the mission was done? Tell me!" Dreadful silence filled the room and nobody wanted to tell her because it would hurt her more.
„I didn't plan on telling you at all. But everyone wanted to tell you after the mission will be over." her breath hitched at the answer from Tony.

„I can't believe you. Is this some sort off illusion because I wish it would be. You're own team mate kept in the dark. Guess I really need to find anything out on my own. By myself like usual." she looked at me with her last sentence and it broke my heart to see her hurt like this. I didn't want to harm her in any way. Especially not this bad and not in those circumstances. „Please Y/n. We're all so sorry. I didn't mean to-." i feel like her eyes looked right through me. „No safe it Wanda. I can't do this right now. I-I need air." she panted and turned on her feet to almost run outside. I was about to run after her but Someone held me back.
„Let her. If you follow her now you guys might say things to each other you will regret in the end."

Y/n POV
I feel like I want to scream out my anger and rage. I was boiling inside and I didn't know how to calm down. I grabbed my keys and left to go to my loft. I couldn't stay in this compound for any second longer than necessary. Knowing that someone would knock on my door. I don't even want to talk to anyone right now. It was a cloudy afternoon and tragic was killing me. Typically for New York you can't really expect anything else. I entered my loft throwing my keys aside on the table. The only place where I can calm down now. I grabbed a bottle off Smirnoff Ice wich was one off my favorite drinks. I went to the fridge and grabbed a bucket off ice cream. Ben and Jerry's Vanilla chocolate with caramel. This is usually my heartbroken type off coping mechanism. But this isn't just a heart break. It's more. I walked up to my bed and sat with crossed legs drinking and eating ice cream constantly. One shot for everyone who lied to me in this meeting room. To dad. To Steve. To Bucky and Sam. To Nat. And most importantly to Wanda. This hurt the most. I was already done with half of the bottle and i heard a knock on my door. I glanced at the clock seeing that some hours have passed.