Y/n Stark

Letting my guard down

Wanda POV
It's been almost a week and Y/n still hasn't Woke up.
After Bruce left Dr Cho arrived immediately. The good thing is that Y/n could manage to breath on her own again. That has to be good I guess. I haven't really done much except for looking around in this place when Dr Cho is working on Y/n conditions. This place is really insane. It was merely 10 am I was drinking my coffee with the view to the ocean. Dr Cho was currently checking in on Y/n and after my breakfast I went straight to her sitting nest to her bed. „Morning Wanda." Dr Cho said looking up from the screen. „Morning. I brought you a coffee." I handed her the mug and she placed it down on her table. „Thank you. I was gonna get some breakfast anyway. I have good news." she smiled and took a sip of her coffee. „Y/n's vitals are getting better with every hour since we let her breath on her own.
She might wake up soon. But I should warn you." she said wich worried me a bit. „She might have some orientation problems on where she is. She might be a little lost at first and I don't know how the trauma will hit her from the last eight months." she was right. Y/n hasn't been in a mentally stable situation since forever. „Will she have memories loss?" I asked because this concerns me the most.
„I don't think so. Maybe at first but not massive. Just don't remember her. The brain needs to process this alone and it will show up eventually." I nod and sat down next to her bed. „What is it with her wounds? Are they healing good?" she nod in agreement.
„Their healing pretty fast for a normal body. I figured that those are her powers letting it heal faster. She can try to get up when she wakes up but she shouldn't force anything onto her body."
„That Sounds promising." i smiled taking her hand.
„Alright I will leave you to it. Take you're time when she wakes up to catch up but I still gotta check on her. So call me." she said taking her mug and laptop while leaving the med bay.

I took out my phone and called Nat to inform her on the good news. „Hey Wands everything alright with you?" she asked immediately after picking up.
„Yeah everything great. I have some good news actually." I smiled so bright that Nat could probably feel it through the phone. „I am all ears tell me."
She sounded exited just like me. „Y/n is actually breathing on her own since two days and her vitals are getting better with every hour." I heard a soft chuckle on the other line and a suppressed sob. She was really relieved to hear this. „Thank god. I know she wasn't out for long but I lost hope for a moment." I can totally understand her thoughts. She was losing Y/n so many times. „By the way how is the cliff house?" she asked curiously. „This isn't just a house Nat. This is a villa. It was scary at first but the view is absolutely stunning. But I still miss the compound and you." she let out a laugh. „Yeah of course you miss me. Who doesn't? But look I gotta go we have a meeting now." she sounded a bit concerned but she couldn't hide it from me.
„Is everything good at the compound? You sounded a bit stressed?" she hummed yes „mhh yeah all good. No need to worry. Just keep a low profile. I hope you call soon when Y/n is awake." I heard Muffed Voice in the background. This wasn't a familiar voice.
„I will Nat. Greet everyone for me will you."
„will do so Wands. Love you."  she said a bit tensed.
„Love you to Nat." and she hung up the call immediately. I don't have a Good feeling about This. Keep a low profile... we are already at a safe house. What does she expect us to do? Throw a party. I let out a sight got up and got myself a coffee mug. I already had my caffein but I feel like I need another one.

Y/n POV
My body felt stiff and everything was hurting. My eyes were closed but I could feel the bright lights blinding me already. Why is it so bright?
Where am I? I moved my body slightly realizing that I am wired to some cable. Shit am I at Hydra again?
I opened my eyes and the lights where blinding me way to much. But I would recognize the lamp. Those aren't any familiar ones. Shit i am not at The compound. I looked around seeing that the med bay isn't the one I am used to. It's either the lab from hydra or the compound med bay. I unplugged myself from all the wires. I wanted to get up but my abdomen hurts like hell. I pulled my shirt up to see two bullet scars trying to heal. W-what happened?
I took a deep breath to calm me down. You need to get out of here. No matter where you are. I got up and felt the cold ground under my feet. This place looks fucking fancy and extremely high tech.
„Damn where did you get yourself into now Stark."
The door opened and I couldn't run to hide anywhere. Shit who is coming in. My eyes met with her immediately and she let her coffee mug drop to the floor. It shattered into pieces as soon as it dropped to the ground. She hasn't said anything. Her mouth stood slightly open and her emerald green eyes looked right through my soul.
Is that W-Wanda? „W-Wanda?" I asked and she gasped at me saying her name. She jumped right into me after a second. I winced a bit at her tight hug but I embraced her right into my arms. I hugged her right back while stroking her head and back up and down. She was sobbing into my shoulder and I felt how the tears soaked into my shirt. „Hey I am fine okay? I'm here." I said and she started to cry louder.
I don't wanna make her cry so I released her from my hug. „Hey I am here alright." I wiped her tears away stroking my thumb above her cheeks.
„I-I thought I lost you. I missed y-you so much."
She fell back into my arms hugging me again. Her head was against my chest and she needed this hug more than anything I assume. So we stayed like This until she released herself from me. She sniffed while wiping away her own tears. „Do you feel better?"
I asked and she nod yes. „I do but don't ask me that. I should be the one asking." she let out a soft chuckle. „I always ask the others first okay. This is a habit." I smiled at her softly. „You shouldn't. You're to selfless. Please never sacrifice yourself for anyone ever again." she said still wiping her tears away.
I raised my hands in surrender. „Also a bad habit I guess." she looked at me puzzled not knowing what to say or how to react. „I have so much to ask and to say but I don't know where to start." she spoke up and her voice was sounding a bit stiff since she cried a lot right now. „Everything at a time Wands. Why don't You start by telling me where I am and after that you can ask anything." I motioned around us while asking where I am. She nod and we sat down onto the bed. „Well we are actually at a safe house. Do you remember anything?" she asked me and I was confused at the words Safe house. „For what a safe house? Are you in danger?" I asked her placing my hand onto hers. She looked down at my hand laying on hers and didn't know what to do so I took it back. „I am sorry." I said but she didn't say anything and took it back into hers. „It's actually a safe house because of you." The confusion builded up a bit more than before. What do I need a safe house for? But then it hit me out of nothing. Every memory passing right in front of my eye. I gasped at all the memories and a tear dropped from my face.
„Hey Are you okay?" she asked placing her free hand onto my cheek. „Eh I don't think so... Everything is just floating back right now. I-I need to process it."
Her glossy eyes looked right into mine. They looked mesmerizing. „Do you need anything? Are you in pain should I call Dr Cho?" I shook my head no.
„It's fine. I'm fine. I just need a moment. The pain is bearable I had it worse." I looked away down onto the ground minding her eyes now. I don't want her in my head. I am not ready for this not now.
„Hey Y/n look at me." she pulled my head up to face her. „I can't imagine what you've been through but you're safe now. You're with me in a safe house and if anyone wants to get to you they have to walk above my dead body. Nobody will get to you okay?" her voice sounded sorry but worried and caring at the same time. „You shouldn't protect me like that.
If you would've seen what I have done." I looked away from her ashamed of the things that I've done in the past eight months. I was brutally murdering a dozen of people. „I saw it." my eyes shoot up back to her. She saw what I've done? „But the Y/n I know and admire would never hurt anyone on purpose. This wasn't you. It's not you're fault." I shook my head no. „I wanna believe what you said so bad. You have no idea... but I can't and I don't know if I will ever be able to do it." she took a hold of my arms and pulled me into a tight hug. As soon as I hugged her back my tears started to fall uncontrollably. She held me for so long and I don't know why but I feel like I can be me and let my guard down around her. „It will take time Y/n. I've been in a similar place as you are right now. I couldn't stop blaming myself." she spoke up but my tears didn't stop. „How can you live with that? I killed people. Not hydra did it I did." her hug got tighter letting me know that I can let everything out. „I learned to live with it. Some days I still have my lows but it doesn't happen that often anymore. You will cope and heal...in time." yeah time. Everything is taking time. „I am done with coping and healing. I can't take it anymore." I was sobbing into her shoulder taking in every moment like it is my last moment of showing emotions. She didn't say anything she just held onto me wich made me feel good and bad at the same time. Her not saying anything lets me think I am right. Or maybe she just doesn't know the right words to say.

We stayed in our hug for so long. It felt comfortable to be in a warm and caring surrounding. I haven't had this comfort in eight months and I didn't know how bad I needed it. I opened my eyes and saw Dr Cho walking in on us. Wandas back was turned to the door so she didn't see her walk in. I cleared my throat and wiped away my tears as is released from the hug wich led Wanda to surprise. „Dr Cho." I said nodding at her giving her a slight smile. „Y/n it's nice to have You back. I hope I wasn't interrupting anything but I need to check in on you if you don't mind." she said stepping a bit closer to take a good look at me. „No you're not interrupting." Wanda's eyes stayed glued to me but I didn't look at her while I talked to Dr Cho. „Are you in any pain right now?" she signaled me to lay down while she asked. Wanda got up from the bed and I lifted my legs up to lay down. „Nothing I can't handle doc." she glared at me. „Y/n I know that you're strong but you don't have to take in any pain. Not anymore." she sounded concerned. „I am fine doc. It just feels a bit stiff but it will heal eventually." I said trying to brush it off but she kept going. She moved closer to lift up my shirt to check on my wounds. My abdomen was completely exposed wich made Wanda's eyes widen.
Her eyes are taking in every scar that is forming on my once soft skin. The eight months in practical hell are written all over my body. Dr Cho took The bandage of and replaced them with new ones after she controlled the healing process. I feel how Wanda's eyes didn't move an inch away from my body wich made me feel bad. I didn't want her to see me like this. „Okay from my perspective you are healing fine. I just want you to take it easy. Don't rush anything and don't force You're body on doing something that will make it hurt. You will get some meds from me to prevent any infections. There will be also some pain meds with it. I want you to take them. Even if you think you can handle it." I glanced at her and she had a warning expression.
I will make sure she will take them doc." Wanda spoke up gaining her attention. „That would be good. Every morning in the afternoon and right before you go to bed. You don't have to take them for long but it's important." she glanced at me giving me a warning look again. „Is there anything else I need to do?" I asked her curious causing her to raise a brow at me with a playful expression. „You have strickt bed rest orders. For a week or more depending on how you're meds will work." I rolled my eyes at the bed rest comment. „Can I at least move into any other room then the med bay? It's not really comfortable here. No offense." This made her laugh at me a bit. „Sure you can. But I want to see you every day twice for a check up. This will also help you walk again to regain strength, but still don't rush anything if you're not ready." I nod in agreement pulling my shirt down and sitting up slowly.
„Thank you Cho. If you don't mind I would like to rest in my bed now." she nod and cleaned everything up before leaving me with Wanda.