Y/n Stark

Watching the sun

Wanda POV

„How often do I need to find you in a med bay again hm? I think we both had enough of that for a lifetime." I talked to Y/n obviously getting no response at all. This has been going on for a whole month. After she got shot by Schmidt everything went down hill for her. Her vitals were crashing down because of her tremendous blood loss. Bruce said that he doesn't know if she will wake up any time soon or at all. Which is killing me day by day. The only time I get up from her side is to shower and eat a little. Everyone has been keeping me company from time to time. I haven't been on any missions either. I didn't want to leave her. I am not planing on leaving. She is my everything and I need her to know that. „I know we had a lot of ups and downs but I love you more every second of the day. I didn't even think it would be possible. Loving you with every bone in my body has made my life complete. You are everything and so much more. So please come back." I placed my forehead on her hand trying to feel her. But she was cold. As if life was passing from her body.

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„Miss Maximoff. I have something for you." Friday spoke up as I watched Y/n vitals.
„What is it Friday?" I sniffed and blinked the tears away.  „Well Mister Stark informed me about Y/n condition. Y/n created you a message if something like this happens again. She wanted me to hand it over to you. It's a video. And she has a letter hidden in your drawer. Do you want me to play it?" I feel like my heart stopped for a moment. She was preparing for this moment. She was really mentally getting ready for the worst case scenario.
„Please project it Friday." I exhaled slowly.

A hologram formed in front off me. Y/n was scratching the back off her head looking at me.

„Hey babe. It's me. If you see this I might not be around you anymore. Or I might be in a coma who knows." she stopped for a moment not really knowing what to say. Hearing her voice feels so surreal. I miss her voice.

„I know life hasn't been fair to you. You've lost to much. Maybe even me. But I want you to know that I will fight to come back to you. No matter what happens... and if I still not making it back to you.
I want you to live. Live and Love. Travel. Try out terrible food and the most delicious ones too. Find new Hobbys. Party a lot. Get drunk. Cry. Scream. But most importantly laugh. I know I won't hear it but others need to hear that beautifully Laugh. That nose scrunch I will miss so desperately. Please try out dumb stuff and go on adventures. Life isn't stopping because I'm not here anymore. I wasn't able to say goodbye to my first love. And I probably didn't get to do it with my last love. Which is you.
But this should be the opportunity for me to let you know that I love you. My love for you is so overwhelming that I'm panicking sometimes because I feel like it's crushing me down. But it's also hugging me and giving me comfort. I want you to do all the things you want to try. No matter what it is. Do it. Because when I will come back. I want you to tell me the most silly story's. I don't wanna hear that you've been by my side the whole time. I'm not asking you to forget me. But if you can't do anything off this? Then please do me one last favor..." my heart breaks as I hear how she is pouring her heart out. She was crying by now because she probably thinks about the future me who is watching this.

„Watch the sun rise and shine every time from now on. This is something you shouldn't miss at all.
The second most beautiful thing in the world. Of course after you." she giggled but let out a sob during this attempted flirt.

„I will watch it with you again. I will fight to watch it with you even if it would be the last time. You deserve it. You deserve happiness. So fucking much.
I hope you won't ever need to see this. But if you do just remember...This isn't a goodbye my love. It's just a see you later. I love you tremendously. Don't ever forget it because I won't. Never. I love you Wanda Maximoff." and with that the projection stopped. She really prepared herself for this moment. I hate that she had to do it. But hearing her voice and hearing her say this puts me even in more pain. My eyes landed on her unconscious body again. The chest that is rising and falling slowly. Almost not noticeable.
How am I supposed to live without you by my side?