Y/n Stark

Cell visit

Y/n POV

My body feels like shit. It's way to sore to even move. The lights are dimmed and I hear Muffed beeping from the medical machines I assume. I open my eyes and see Wanda laying her head on top of my hand sleeping peacefully. I can't help but smile at how much she cares. I glanced at the clock hanging on the wall and it's almost nine am. I don't know for how long I've been asleep but it sure wasn't enough. This building crashing down on us is really another level on hurt. My throat was dry and I wanted to drink something but I didn't want to wake Wanda. Who knows for how long she has been sleeping. I look to my left and saw a can of water with a Glas next to it. I tried to reach for the Glas but I was only inches away so that I couldn't reach it. God I feel so helpless I can't even get myself a drink. I moved my body slightly and I woke up Wanda with my moves. „Y/n your awake!" she exclaimed happy but still with a raspy tired voice. She noticed that I was trying to reach for the drink and she immediately got up to help me out. „Here let me help you. Don't move to much."
She poured me water and I drank it in less than seconds letting my dry throat moisture.
„T-thank you." my voice was still sore and dry but I could talk a bit at least. „Do you need anything else?" she asked as she sat down again next to me. I shook my head no letting her know that I don't need anything now. I was glancing and scanning the room for Thomas. It's not normal to survive something like this so I put the puzzle together and assume he is dead. Wich shocked me. After all he still meant something to me wich sounds dumb. But I care way to much for people who don't deserve my care. „Hey Y/n what's wrong? What's on you're mind hm?" she asked me and pulled me back out of my mind space.

Her eyes were tired but she still pulled a soft caring smile on her face. „I-is he... dead?" I asked and I saw how her expression changed.
„He isn't." she said soft taking my hand in hers.
„Sorry for asking." I added and she shook her head. „It's fine. You care for people. That's what makes you a good person." she said in a gentle manner. „God i feel so stupid." I began to exhale loudly trying to collect my words. She furrowed her brows not knowing exactly why I am saying that.
„I could have stopped him. At least that's what I thought. But when he started to talk about you my mind went blank. I couldn't see and act clear anymore. I-I was filled with rage but so much that I couldn't control myself anymore." my voice started to break as I noticed how dry my throat became once again. I was coughing wich made my body hurt even more. „Hey it's fine Slow down okay. Come on drink some more." she gave me the glass and I gulped everything down at once. My body was feeling exhausted and I didn't know what to do. „What about... all the neighbors? Are they?" I started to realize that I wasn't alone in this building with him. She lowered her head and that already gave me the answer to my question. „Not again."
I was on the verge of crying and she noticed as her head shoot Up instantly. „It's not you're fault Y/n."
I shook my head. „It is. I could have stopped him
I-if. God I am always having blood on my hands no matter what I do. It just d-doesn't stop." I pushed my head back into the pillow out of anger and frustration towards myself. „Not even Friday could locate the bombs. He is having this blood on his hands and not you. Don't blame yourself you were just there and it Happens." she stroked the tears away that where floating down my cheeks.
„Where is he now? I need to see him." I grilled through my teeth out of rage and anger wich couldn't locate. It was anger towards me and him. Especially myself because I drag innocent people with me. I should have tried to bring him out of the building.

As I tried to get up Wanda pushed me down gentle back into bed. „Y/n don't. What you need now is rest. So that you can heal properly. We almost lost you. I almost lost you again. So please he is in a cell downstairs and everyone is keeping a close eye on him." I let out a sight knowing that she is right.
,,so? what am i dealing with hm?" I pointed up and down onto my body. Wanda let out a sight collecting everything in her mind to tell me.
„Bruce told us you have a mild concussion. Two fractured ribs and also bruising around them. Also a bruised hip. Let's not forget the metal rod that pierced through you're lower body. Not any organs got hit in a bad way. Dr Cho removed the wounds that could have turned into scars. Except the one where the metal rod went through because it's a big one." well that was less then I expected but it was still much to deal with. „Well it's nothing I can't deal with hm. Guess I need a new body soon." I tried to joke but Wanda wasn't really in the mood for laughing. „Sorry Wands. It's just sometimes I like to joke about serious stuff instead of dealing with it properly. My ‚special way' of dealing with trauma." she tilted her head giving me a soft and worried smile. „I love you and I am sorry for letting you feel helpless. But your helping me enough by staying with me." I stroked her hand squeezing it tight. „I love you too."